V A M O S

2012-01-24T21:24:00.000+08:00

You will eventually get tired of each other; everyday quarrel and misunderstanding, routinary dates and escapades and sometimes even the sweet text messages. And then you will break up; try everything to loose contact with each other, fight against your own will to stop looking at your old photos; which will last for days, sometimes weeks. And then that morning will come when you'll suddenly, from out of nowhere, long for the good morning messages or good morning hug or good morning kiss on the forehead and you'll realize that you miss that person, regret what just lasted for days or weeks and still, until the very end ignore the reality that you still love that person. So now you're back having daily conversations with him.

UP Baguio Oblation Run

2011-12-21T20:28:00.001+08:00

December 16, 2011

On a freezing Friday night at Baguio City, just hours after I arrived at the coolest place in the Philippines.

It draws its name from the Oblation, a statue of a nude man located in every University of the Philippines (UP) campus, which symbolizes "a selfless offering of one’s self to the country."

It was my first time to witness the Lantern Parade and Dance of the Brave (Oblation Run). I was with my BS Biology friends who are studying in UP Baguio, luckily one of them is a member of the Alpha Phi Omega who does the annual Oblation run as part of their tradition.

They entered the crowd unannounced and they left me dumbfounded.

I stood there frozen like a statue, speechless and amazed on how brave these guys were as they run naked through the crowd of UP students shouting, figuring out who they were and waiting for some precious roses from them.
All I did that moment was to tick my camera and capture some precious memories and hopefully get a nice picture

And if given another chance, I will still watch Oblation Run not because of then naked hot guys but because I want to witness how they strive to preserve their tradition and continue the legacy of their fraternity.

Addicted to Richard Gere

2011-12-11T18:16:00.000+08:00

It all started after watching Nights In Rodanthe which made my tears fall, then I searched for a couple more romantic movies and found Autumn in New York, after that I was addicted to him and downloaded some more movies which I think is soo good: Pretty Woman, American Gigolo, Amelia, Runaway Bride, Shall We Dance, Chicago and ended it all up with Unfaithful. Richard Gere is the best actor in a romantic movie plus he is soo handsome (more than George Clooney) especially when he was young!

I must stop now, he is really addicting!

1. Pretty Woman:

2. American Gigolo

3. Shall We Dance

4. Run Away Bride

5. Amelia

6. Chicago

7. Unfaithful

8. Nights in Rodanthe

Pretty Woman and Shall We Dance are my new favorite movies

(I already have watched them three times!) haha

He's religious, he's handsome, he has this wicked unique soft smile which melts every woman's heart, he's a great dancer (Shall We Dance), maybe a singer too (Chicago), he does not seem to age.

He is a great actor.
Richard Gere is the BEST!

12-07-2011: Nostalgic Me

2011-12-07T20:13:00.002+08:00

time flew too fast! We visited Bataan delegates for SCUAA 2011 this afternoon and found some of our team mates in CLRAA 2007 still playing their games until the sun sets. hmm.. oh i miss training and playing my favorite sport all day for weeks of “quartering”, living with other priced (sometimes good looking) athletes in one venue, when our only problem is how to eat everything they feed us and how we’ll wake up so early to jog after a night’s chismisan. it was during that time when i realized and felt how wealthy the government is.haha! free uniform, free shoes, free food, allowances…I could not ask for more! I loved the athlete’s life…the good, if not the best life!

Dealing A Hang Over

2011-11-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

Here are some tips, based on personal experience, on how to deal with a hang-over especially if you have an important thing to attend to the day after intoxicating yourself or if your parents do not know that you're a drunkard.

1. Never ever forget to turn your alarm off. You should wake up at the time your body wants to because otherwise you'll have a bad day; it's more like waking up on the wrong side of the bed or worse.

2. Expect headache and nausea so do not stand up from bed too fast. Never return lying down because it'll worsen the nausea.

3. Surely you are thirsty so drink a lot of water, sit down somewhere other than the place where you slept, take time and relax.

4. Eat some noodles, arozcaldo or anything hot that will your stomach up.

5. If you're lucky and were able to sleep at your place, take a good bath. If not, wash your face up, go home and take a bath. You just have to take a bath not only to remove the alcoholic smell but also to loose the dizziness and freshen you up. Do not use warm water.

*Do not move too fast, do everything slowly because it worsens the dizziness.

*Avoid things with alcoholic scent; it'll just ruin things up.

Then you will be ready for whatever again.

Cheers!

W Jones Cup 2011 -groin incidents

2011-08-12T20:50:00.003+08:00

What's wrong with some players in the W.Jones Cup 2011. the other day, a Malaysian held Asi Taulava's balls and then during this evening's match, a Japanese player kicked Chris Tiu's groin

well, i just hope those weren't intentional

Noong isang araw groin-grabbing incident

tapos kanina, penis-kicking incident naman

isang bahagi ng term paper namin sa literature noong college (Para Kay B)

2011-08-11T00:48:00.001+08:00

Ang pag-ibig may may iba’t-ibang mukha depende kung paano mo ito titingnan, depende kung paano mo ito mararamdaman at depende kung paano ito magiging bahagi ng iyong buhay at pagkataon. Walang quota ang pag-ibig dahil maaaring maging maligaya ang lima sa bawat limang umiibig.

Sa limang kwento ng pag-ibig sa kauna-unahang nobelang ito ni Ricky Lee ay maraming matututunan na makakatotohanan tungkol sa kung paano talaga ang dalisay na pagmamahalan ng dalawang tao.

Hindi porke’t masama at mapait ang alaala mo tungkol sa isang bahagi ng iyong buhay ay kalilimutan mo na ang lahat tungkol dito, na maski ang matatamis na alaala ng kung papaano ka unang umibig ng lubusan noong iyong kabataan ay iyong buburahin. Sa tunay na pagkakaibigan nagsisimula ang malalim na pag-iibigan na tumatagal nang habang buhay, kahit ano pa man ang mangyari, kahit na minsa’y i-deny ka ng taong mahal mo. Ito ang itinuturo ng kwento nina Irene at Jordan, na kahit na liku-liko ang kalsadang kanilang dinaan ay nakarating pa rin sila sa masayang magpasawalang hanggan.

Libreng magmahal kahit kailan mo naisin, ngunit hindi mo maaaring mahalin ang lahat ng tao sa mundo, hindi mo maaaring mahalin, in a romantic way ang mga pari at madre, hindi mo maaaring mahalin ang mga hayop, halaman at bagay, ang kaparehas mo ng kasarian at hindi mo maaaring mahalin sa ganitong paraan ang iyong mga kamag-anak, lalo na ang iyong kapatid. Hindi maaaring mahalin ni Sandra si Lupe at ni Ester si Sara kahit na natatangi ang pag-ibig nila, kahit na ito’y gusto nilang ipaglaban sa lahat ng tao sapagkat mali ito dahil ang pag-ibig rin nama’y may sariling rules and regulations na para rin naman sa dalawang nag-iibigan at sa pag-ibig kailangan paganahin din ang isip muna kaysa puso, kaya nga ba’t may mataas ang posisyon ng utak sa puso sa ating katawan.

Walang totoong lugar ng Maldiaga at walang totoong tiyak na lugar sag lobo na love-less at parang mortal sin ang salitang pag-ibig dahil lahat tayo ay nasa mundo at buhay ngayon dahil mismo sa pag-ibig. Nagiging manhid ang tao, nakakalimutan kung paano umibig kung pinalaki siya sa ganitong paraan, walang pag-ibig, walang affection at titingnan ka ng masama kapag sinabi mo ang salitang love. Ganito marahil sa Maldiaga, ang lugar na bawal ang kahit anong love at doon lumaki si Erica, ang babaing manhid sa pag-ibig ni Jake, ang babaing kahit anong gawin ay hindi makaramdam ng pag-ibig dahil hindi niya alam kung ano ito, kung saan galing ito at kung papaano ito, ngunit matiyaga si Jake, matiyaga ang tunay na pag-ibig, ito’y naghihintay, naghahanap, kahit ikamatay pa ang tunay na pag-ibig sapagkat magiging Masaya lamang ang isang tao, sa tunay na pag-ibig, hindi sa huwad at sapilitang relasyong mag love raw sakanila.

Ang ultimate lesson siguro sa nobelang ito ang kung paanong maghintay sa pagmamahal na ibalik sa iyo, kahit na mamatay ka pa sa sakit na iyong nararamdaman dahil alam mo sa sarilim mo na kahit kailan ay hindi mapapa sa iyo ang iyong iniibig at sa huli ay hayaan na lang ito, mag let go at mag move on.

Madaling banggitin pero sadyang napakahirap gawin ng salitang let go at move on. Ito yung oras na sinasabihan mo yung sarili mo na tama na, palayain mo na ang sarili mo at kalimutan mo na iyon, kahit na sa puso at isip mo ay hindi mo kaya.

Hindi naman talaga tayo nakakapag move on o nakakapaglet go. Natututo lang tayong mamuhay nang iba naman, nang wala na sila, nang tayo na lang ulit mag-isa, kung paanong nagsimula tayo sa buhay. Masasanay din ang tao sa ganito, at kapag dumating na ang oras na iyon, masasabi mo na, na ikaw ay nakapag move on na, na ikaw ay nakapag let go na.

Masarap umibig at ibigin pero sa bawat saya ay mayroong luhang kapalit, kagaya ng pag-ibig, hindi sa lahat ng panahon ay maligaya, minsan kailangang tumulo ang iyong luha para ika’y matuto, para sa iyong pag-ibig at para sa iyong iniibig.

UST Sets Guinness Record of the World's Largest Human Cross

2011-08-10T20:22:00.000+08:00

GUINNESS WORLD RECORDS. UST Sets Guinness Record of the World's Largest Human Cross

It's finally official! Thomasians made history when 13,266 participants marked the UST campus with the world's largest human cross on Ash Wednesday, 9 March 2011. As a bastion of Catholic teaching, the University of Santo Tomas continues to spread the light of faith as it endeavors to build the church, the nation and the family. Go USTe!

N.B. Although actual turnout of participants was close to 20k, the official count only recognized those who swiped their ID's both when entering and going out of the field, as relayed during the instructions. (Apparently, not everyone was keen to swipe on their way out) Nevertheless, the new record is set, and we congratulate the whole Thomasian community for such an achievement! Go USTe!

Registered Licensed Pharmacist at 21

2011-08-01T22:20:00.003+08:00

after four long crazy years in the UST Faculty of Pharmacy,

here I am,

keeping my license as a registered pharmacist

in my old musty wallet.

a few more months with Bertram Katzung and Shargel and i will be ready for anything :))
THANK YOU GOD!

celebrating my first night of being a pharmacist

2011-06-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

it was a sunny Wednesday morning, i did not know what to do, where to go or what to expect. my heart was pounding. it was the morning after our board exam.
i went home after the exams not sure of passing and because of alot of expectations, im too shy to face people at the moment. i just wanted to melt.
so i decided to meet up with him (the only constant guy in my life for six years now). it was a pretty long ride, i was exhausted and hungry when I arrived at my destination so he made me sit directly at the dinning table. yes i was hungry, but sitting beside him is enough for me. that moment, i felt invinsible.

i was alone watching Dead Poets Society using his laptop when i saw a tweet from joie which linked the exam results from prc. suddenly, my heart's beat was more than the definition of a tachycardia! it was only a day after the exam and there was i, staring at the link which will dictate the rest of my life.

funny as in may seem, but i was too afraid to open the link so i logged out from both facebook and tweeter and shut my cellphone off. all i wanted was some time of isolation from the world.

realizing that i had no choice because one way or another i will know the results whether i like it or not, i opened the link, eyes closed.

i searched for my friends name first and they all passed! i was too frightened to type mine in the "find" tab so i scrolled through the page until "M", stoppped and prayed. and there was my name
"MANINGAT, MARIA EDA INFANTE"

my tears was unstoppable.
"Thank You God" seemed to be the only words left in my vocabulary.

then he came in.
he was the first person who knew that i am, that time a registered pharmacist. (i wanted him to be the first one actually) i hugged him and tears came falling again. that became the best moment of my life right now. "euphoria" falls a little short for the perfect word to describe it.
i was hysterical but he was just so calm, like nothing life-changing happened in my life. i thought at that jiffy he really does not care after all.
i asked him to buy a few bottles of beer, so we did. while in his car driving along a deserted road beside an ocean, i was almost shouting my lungs out and kind'a like a fake cd which says the same phrase over and over again. it was a moment when you can almost say "I can die right now!"
the view was breath taking, the stars shone brightly which lit the dim winding road, the ocean seemed to reflect the light coming from the stars and there was i, sitting in the passenger seat right beside the gentleman that i always wanted to be with.
it was almost midnight when i called the celebration off because im almost drunk and I dont want to be drunk on my first night of being a pharmacist.
as we were walking away from the kubo along a cliff, i told him again the same phrase that i've been telling him all night long and then I ended it up with:
"Bakit parang hindi ka naman masaya for me."
and he answered: "Because Im not that surprised."
...and everything became perfect. my though was almost like "I can die right now!"

what more could i ask for?
what else of a celebration can be happier that what just happened?

he is i think, the only guy who accepts me for who i am.
i asked him one week ago if he'll hate me if i fail the board exam, and after asking that question, i felt stupid with what he answered. of course he will never ever hate me. he never did and will never do.

like what a famous song says:
This is the moment, i thank God that Im alive. This is the moment i'll remember all my life. I have all i've waited for and i could not ask for more!

we belive!

2011-06-10T20:05:00.000+08:00

it feels like we are all hanging in a balance.
no one knows what will happen in two weeks time.
but we are all optimistic, 100%!

all we can do right now is to study until the eyes close...
until the brain shuts down or until it hits the wall...
until that weird moment comes when suddenly you realize that you are already talking to yourself out loudly, or talking too much to people around you...

we believe!

with God, everything is possible!
100% !

(3:50 am) some random thoughts

2011-05-19T03:53:00.004+08:00

i have been wanting to write something so that my blog would somehow be updated plus writing something relaxes me somehow but i havent really had time for my self the past week and wont be too for the couple of weeks forward. but its okay. i kinda wanted this anyway.

it is usually this time of the day when my imaginative and talkative mind would function, i dont know why, but its kinda amusing. :))

it is almost four in the morning, the sun is about to shine again.
it is a brand new day.
a fresh day to start anew.
but for me, its just another day.

1. we only have one and a half month to prepare for the "Big Day" and Im kinda pressured right now so i can barely sleep. before our review started, most of the time I fall asleep at around midnight and wake up at around three or four in the morning (is that a sickness because i really dont know why that happens all the time) and sometimes i can not sleep up until two in the morning, that's the time when I start to pray the Rosary until I end up snoring. But the past days, after our lectures in the review center, I havent been able to sleep. I try to close my eyes for about an hour and try to just doze off but all I see are the lectures and discussions and notes and/or all I think about are the stuffs that i studied or the stuffs that i need to study, and then i would stand up form my bed and begin reading again, but with an agitated and tired state of mind, the reading isnt really helpful, its almost like wasting time because the things wont get stuck in the memory. And because of this, I end up feeling bad and lethargic the whole day.
for now, im just so excited to finish this off and get this over with, just like college.
a little more sacrifice. a little more sleepless nights.

2. yeah, him again.
dont you feel this way too during this time of the day?
you miss that one person who will forever be special to you no mater what and just think about things you wanna do together (kinda like daydreaming during the night. haha!)
the thought of him not only makes the butterflies in my stomach fly but also make my brain cells function and my imagination explore. :}

after june 28, im going to do everything that i want to.
im going to tell people what they're supposed to do.
its about time to live life to the fullest.
about time to live life like there's no tomorrow.

my dream TRB Dream Marthon 2012 or something else

2011-05-01T14:46:00.002+08:00

When my kuya (Edison Maningat who just became an ultramarathoner after finishing 100km in 27.20hours in TNF100-CAmSur) finished his first Full Marathon (that's 42 kilometers) in The Bull Runner Dream Marathon 2010, I said to myself "I am definitely going to finish my first marathon in this same event maybe next year of the year after if im still here."

that time, I was one of those what they call "The Chasers" (supporters and cheerers).

it was a very well-organized run for first timers. there were cheerers everywhere, there was a bus which would fetch us supporters and bring us to a place where the runners would pass so that we would cheer for them, they were giving us away last pieces of papers and pens for us to write in them or make something for our runner and since the race starts at 2:00 in the morning, they would give free Starbucks coffee as we wait for the runners to arrive.

it was a great event for everyone!

"The Bull Runner" Jaymie Pizarro (founder of TBR-DM)

i wanted to joing TBR Dream Marathon 2011 but I failed to get a slot. (and i think i chose to but an orchestra ticket for a musical over buying a slot here. LOL!). but maybe im for TBR Dream Marathon 2012! (or run my first marathon maybe in torontomarathon 2012, who knows?) haha! :))

2011-04-27T19:35:00.000+08:00

my kuya's sun visor for his The North Face 100k Trail Run

Camarines Sur

April 30, 2011

Palm Sunday: How ironic...

2011-04-18T21:41:00.001+08:00

Unang beses ko lang magsimba ng Lingo ng Palaspas dito sa Maynila, nakaugalian ko na kasing umuwi ng Bataan tuwing Holy Week, pero ngayon lang ako nawalan ng choice kundi dito na lang magsimba.
Unang beses ko lang ring magsimba ng Lingo ng Palaspas na walang hawak na palaspas sa kamay. gustuhin ko man, hindi na rin sigurodapat kasi wala naman akong mapaglalagyan ng palaspas sa bahay namin dito sa Manila.

Habang nasa Misa, tinanong ako ng kaibigan ko: Talagang naka red sya? [pointing at the priest]
Gamit ang akin munting nalalaman tungkol sa simbahan mula sa aking makulay na nakaraan bilang altar server ng limang taon sinagot ko sya: Yes. Red talaga ngayon kasi "happy day" ngayon. Ngayon kasi diba pumasok si Jesus sa Jerusalem.

Ironic.

Festive ang mood pero ang homilya ay tungkol kay Jesus na ipinako at namatay sa krus.

pagkatapos ipagdiwang ng lahat ng tao ang pagdating Nya sa kanilang bayan, makalipas lang ang ilang araw ay nilatigo sya habang nakatali sa haliging bato, nilagyan ng koronang tinik, pinagpasan ng krus paakyat ng bundok, ipinako sa krus katabi ang dalawang makasalanan at namatay. at saka lang naniwala na Sya nga ang Tagapagligtas!

ahhh leche! whatever...

2011-04-16T19:39:00.004+08:00

An excerpt from one of our Theology Class' Project [three years ago] entitled: My Life's Journey.

"I do believe in the saying that love is sweeter the second time around. Love is unending and trust is on its strongest. I do not think of the end, I always believe the everyday is a new start so that we won’t get tired of each other. We spend almost everyday of the week together and laugh throughout it. It’s like time stops every time we are together, we always lose track of time, and just let everything come and go as long as we are holding each other’s hands. I enjoy being with him and he does with me too. We don’t need to look nice to have each other’s attention, we both like the way everybody is and live with it. Many times nowadays I think that it is really God working, that our past break-up was for the better. And now, just like the old song says, “These are the moments I thank God that I’m alive. These are the moments I’ll remember all my life. I’ve got all I’ve wanted for and I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE.”"

"bullshit!" ~reaction ko tuwing nababasa ko ang buong sulat ko na yan. haha!

kapag naaalala ko ang feeling ko dati habang sinusulat ko yan, nasusuka ako. paranggusto kong iluwa ang bawat brain cells na naglalaman ng memory ko sakanya. (hindi ako bitter).

hindi ako masasakitin at isa lang ang allergy ko sa katawan:

Im ALLERGIC TO JERKS.

kaya malamang naaalibadbaran ako kapag nasapaligid ko sya.

haha!

being alone...

2011-04-16T19:23:00.000+08:00

6:52 pm
In a dimly lit room
Asturias (Dapitan) Sampaloc, Manila

being alone is not easy for it is during the times that we are by ourselves when we think infinitely, when our imagination becomes endless and our thoughts and feelings are both indescribable and immeasurable.

it is also during our lonesome times when sometimes we feel extreme sadness and the longing to be with the people whom we love.

boracay's sunset

2011-04-16T18:17:00.001+08:00

it was my first time in Boracay.

but right then and there I fell deeply in love with it.

kinda like "Love at first sight."

someday i will rule the world...

2011-04-16T18:05:00.003+08:00

Someday I will rule the world. And when that day comes, everybody I hate will be tortured to death and no law about human rights will be implemented. Earth for those who does not appreciate me and what I do, will become hell but they should still love and support me because if not, they will be tortured to death too.

I will gather everybody’s money and then will burn it because I am going to reprint a new currency with my picture on it and put it in a bank which then I will own.

All properties; cars, houses and lands will become mine.

I am the ruler of the world. Earth will become Planet Eda.

I will build a special huge island where edible fruits and vegetables are to be grown and another island where animals which we will eat are to be bred.
But still, you can grown your own plants or raise your own animal at your backyard.

Food will become abundant. It will be buffet through out the day at hotels where everybody can stay, for free.

House and lots, rebuilt with swimming pool and centralized air con or heater in it will be given for free. Rural areas will not be far anymore because there will be a Mall and a Disney land in every region or state where entrance fee is for free and in every town, there will be a movie house and time zone too.

Hospitalization, Education and transportation are for free.

No slum area will remain.

Those areas that are expected to endure from flash floods are to be removed form the map and those that are living in there will be given a new house and lot.

Going in and out of your country is for free, as well as watching a movie in Hollywood or touring in Caribbean or Bahamas. You will just need to give me a letter so I may decide if I will or will not approve of it.
Of course there will still be Hollywood superstars and gigantic international and national companies. They will remain.

Everybody will get a new cell phone. I will choose what brand and series will be given to you. And it will be loaded with unlimited call and text forever.

Everybody will also receive a brand new car. I will choose which to give depending on what I think you deserve.

Pharmacy will become the leading course in college.

Nuns will become beautiful as ever and Priesthood will become the coolest vocation for men ever but still following the chastity, Celibacy and Obedience vow.

Bars and beerhouses will be accessible only to those eighteen years old and above. Antonio St. Cor. Dapitan will become the coolest spot for yosi breaks.

A government shall still exist but I will become the president of the presidents of all the nations.

However, before running for presidency or any other political position of your country, one must pass my examination, just like an entrance exam before entering college, so that we may know that you really are eligible to run.

But when I become the ruler of the world, I will still remain in the Philippines, living in our bungalow house who rides a tricyle, jeep, fx, mrt, and a public bus.
I want to rule the world because maybe, I might change the way how we live, maybe I might give equality and justice . (except for those i hate and who will hate me) hahahahahaha

gradeschool graduation

2011-04-16T15:29:00.005+08:00

this was our elementary graduation song (Hermosa Elementary School) composed by our sixth grade teacher, Miss Benito.
we were the first batch to sing this.
i already forgot the last stanza... but i can still remember how to sing it! :p

Anim na taon ang lumipas
Mula ng matutong sumulat
Bumasa at maging mabuti
Para sa aming kapwa

Kay tagal kong pinangarap
Diplomang mula sa 'king sikap
Dunong mula sa king gurong
Labis na nagsumikap

Ngayon ay sandali ng pagtatapos
Pangarap ay amin nang naaabot
Handang harapin ang bagong hamon
Upang maging mamamayang lubos

selfish version o: "Grow Old with You"

2011-04-16T15:21:00.004+08:00

Grow Old With Me

You wanna make me smile whenever I’m sad
Carry me around when my arthritis is bad
All you wanna do is grow old with me

Youll get my medicine when my tummy aches
Build me a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with me

Youll miss me
youll kiss me
Give me my coat when I am cold

Youll need me
youll feed me
Even let me hold the remote control

So let you do the dishes in my kitchen sink
Put me to bed if I have had too much to drink
You could be the man who grows old with me
You wanna grow old with me

Nakapaskil sa jeep na "Quiapo (Ilalim)

2011-04-16T15:11:00.006+08:00

SAMPUNG UTOS SA MAG-IINOM

1. Huwag makulit habang nag-iinom!
2. Huwag matakaw at huwag kamayin ang pulutan!
3. Huwag patagalin ang baso, may naghihintay pang tatagay!
4. Huwag uminom ng uminom, kailangang bumili ka rin!
5. Magpaalam kung uuwi na. Huwag yung biglang nawawala!
6. Uminom ng diretso sa tsan, at huwag sa ulo upang maiwasan ang basag ulo!
7. Magtira ng panlakad, kahit hinlalaki ng paa, iwasan din gumuwi ng pagapang!
8. Huwag matutulog habang umiinom!
9. Siguraduhing sa sariling bahay ang uwi kung lasing na.
10. Huwag mananakit ng asawa, kung hindi bigyan ng pang-inom ay dapat mo pang lambingin at nang pagbigyang muli!

*Huling pakiusap, bawal sumuka at umihi sa salawal... Hik!!! Hik!!!
Para tuloy ang samahan.

Samahan ng mga Lasenggero ng Pilipinas

(SALAPI)

may pag-aalinlangan pa rin

2011-04-16T14:33:00.002+08:00

kung gaano ako kaexcited magkaroon ng lisensya ganun din ang level ng takot ko para sa board exam.
natatakot ako sa failure, pero kailangan kong harapin ang takot na yun kasi hindi naman pwedeng hindi kasi masstuck na lang ako sa ganito forever, at hindi yon pwede. hindi yon katanggap-tanggap!

hanggang ngayon, wala pa rin akong motivation para seryosohin ang pag-aaral. iniisip ko pa rin kasi na "Oh My Gosh ang dami dami dami dami ng aaralin! kakayanin ko ba? maaalala ko kaya silang lahat sa board exam mismo?"

doon pa lang natitigilan na ako.
at sa bawat lipat ko ng pahina ng mga libro, sa bawat topic na natatapos ko palagi pa ring may alinlangan. ang pakiramdam na tila wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko na kaya kong itong gawin, wala akong tiwala na kaya kong ipasa ang board exam.

marahil kulang lang ako sa inspirasyon, or motibasyon or mga salitang nakakapagpabuhay ng diwa.

Anita predicts

2011-04-11T16:51:00.002+08:00

There are alot of applications in Facebook which "predicts" our future but Anita Predictions is my favorite of them all.

Im not really into these kind of things and I dont believe them either. I just find it amusing to read them. :))

Compared to any other applications who tell us about our future, may it be devastating or encouraging, I find the Anita Predictions sweet most of the time. She's the application who speaks about love, life, friendship and sometimes about money too.

Quadricentennial Medal

2011-04-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

Q Medal for the Q Batch!

so finally...

2011-04-07T18:50:00.007+08:00

after four long, sleepless, stressful yet fun-filled, productive and didactic years I am now done with you BS Pharmacy!

I am happy, who wont be! but in the midst of ecstasy, there's sadness. we are leaving. we wont be in the same classroom for about twelve hours five days a week anymore. its about time for the real life, the real world. :|

thats why now im nostalgic but ill keep it brief. :|

so finally i am graduating...

Four years ago, the first time I stepped on the corridors of 2nd floor in the Main Building, I said to myself "Geez, this will be my home for four long years. can i do this?"
each day I leave my house, I pack light and bring only the essentials but that Monday morning was different. I brought every bit I can: bag, pen, paper, pencil, sharpener, crayons [yeah, I remember bringing this], scissors, extra uniform [I still dont now why I brought this, but yes, I did], handkerchief, money, food, water, courage, positivity, extra smiles, extra patience, humor, my shallow English vocabulary and common sense [just in case]. That day, I guess, I was ready for whatever or whoever.
and so there was I, as what most freshmen look, totally lost and don't have any clue of where to go, when i finally found our classroom [room 21~something. i forgot]. it was cold inside, a little silent and awkward. it was my first time to enter a room where I do not know anyone. I was frightened. Should I speak in English or Tagalog? should I talk to them first or will I wait until they speak to me? Is it okay to sit where ever i want to? Will there be anybody here who is going to be a long term friend? I was nauseous.

Weeks passed by and the environment became ordinary and soothing, I realized that time, I was HOME. I gained friends, been introduced to many different past-time activities, brought to alot of leisure places and built my study habits [dont deny it, we all have study habits!]

Claire, Pam and Shen (she transferred at La Salle after our second year) were my first friends who then became my housemates, then Rama, Rona and Cyndrill's group merged with us and then Neil and Laurie came in. They became my friends. Long-term friends. Never did I thought that I would be blessed with such friends who were in the journey with me through good times and bad. They are one of the few reasons why I survived and enjoyed my college life.

Being in UST Faculty of Pharmacy, I experienced most of my firsts, some of which I would never thought I'd experience in my lifetime. It was my first time to be at school for at least thirteen solid hours and still have alot of homework, reports, and take-home stuffs to be done! I could still vividly remember those sleepless nights when we would have reports the next day and quiz in every subject (most of which is a 5unit course) and assignments and thesis experiments and/or deadlines and classes starts at 7 am. Those were the reasons why we endure sleepless nights which gives us, well specifically me, alot of huge eye bags. It was my first time to have those kind of big, red, swollen eyes which wants to close but dont have the right to because the professor in front who is frantically lecturing appears to be frightening. It was also my first time to experience sleeping for a maximum of 6 hours (during weekdays) and when times get worse, we are spared with two hours of sleep. I also had the chance to travel to alot new places for both research and leisure. It was my first time to walk along the corridor sometimes to have at least the chance to see my crush (you know-who), learned to drink till [we] drop, learned how to correctly puff a cigarette, go to school with a hang-over, review in a beerhouse for a final exam, go home during the wee hours (or not at all), eat alone, kill time, study inside the library, appreciate silence, long free hours and fresh air, use facebook as source of review material, watch a UAAP Game in Araneta and Phil.Sports Complex, see the Master of the Dominican Order, see alot of Pyromusicals for free, MY NAME TO BE PUT IN A TIME CAPSULE and alot more!

Now we are leaving...
[It is time to face the reality which our university prepared us for.]
Even if our journey as pharmacy students seemed to be miserable and looks like it sucks, truth is, it doesnt! Four years was a fun ride! We may not have much time to hang-out in every place we want to, we still had one hell of a college experience which we will never forget for the rest of our lives.
While you are in some place chilling, we are in the Laboratory learning and laughing our lungs out because of an experiment done and funny ways how we manipulated the results for it to be POSITIVE! :))
While you are in the club partying, we are in our rooms chilling on one table with our friends who wont get drunk with alcohol but will act and look exactly the same as your drunk friend because of different mind-boggling pages after pages of pharmacology stuffs.
And while you are dismissed early from class, we are still in the same room enjoying the company of our beloved classmates until the darkness creeps across the corners of our university.
Simple memories are what we remember for the longest time and these memories are built mostly in the company of friends and/or classmates in a peaceful place.

College taught me alot of things about life besides the nerdy part.
How to be independent is my favorite of them all. Im living for four years [and counting] in a place where there is no rules and no one to control me. I can basically do whatever i want to: ruin my life or do something to make it amazing to live in.

Here I am, a day from having by bachelor's degree, proved something to everyone. :)

I will definitely miss our University especially the Faculty of Pharmacy (2nd floor of Main Building).

*plus my college crush. :)) [well, he'll always be my crush even after college]

Its been a pleasure living in the grounds of the Royal Pontifical Catholic University of Sto. Tomas where the presence of God is forever felt, good friends is just a blink away, love is always in the atmosphere and peace is everywhere.

Maningat, Maria Eda I.

Seat No: 28 (oftentimes)

1F . 2F . 3F . 4E Pharmacy

UST Faculty of Pharmacy

ang bitin kong blog na emo

2011-02-27T11:25:00.001+08:00

like a tree in the middle of a dessert, during the deep moments in the darkness of night the lonesome being emanates, loneliness creeps and emptiness cripples the already tired and weary physique.

night after night this feeling grows until the heart makes it part of its beating. night after night of lonesome loneliness and emptiness.

why these?
why thee?
no one knows. nobody even she herself.

about five years ago, she was the happiest lady, even though faced with a lot of adversities, optimism was her mindset. no problem could tear her delicate heart, no one could make her feel blue. the days when she was crazily in love with the omnipotent and benevolent Lord of lords. all was perfect, it felt like paradise here on earth until the day all of them were instructed to stop serving at the altar. she was sent off from her fountain of happiness, from her second family, from her life. ...serving at the Altar was her second self but it was taken away. all can do nothing but obey, obedience is one of their duties.
yes bishop, whatever you say.

and then little by little, inch by inch, time after time the happy smiling face, the flaming and burning love faded.

and then she went to college.

ang naglalagablab na pag-ibig ay natupok ng makamundong mga bagay mula sa kolehiyo, nakakabingi mula sa tawag ng Diyos. hanggang sa ang apoy na naging mahinang baga na lamang, konting kanti ay matutupok nang tuluyan.

hanggang doon nanatili ang lahat, isang maliit na ilaw ng baga sa kailalim-ilaliman ng kanyang puso. naghihintay ng bibig na iihip para tuluyang patayin o isang bibig na iihip upang lumagablab muli.

nagkaroon na siya ng mga kongkretong plano para sa kanyang buhay. hindi na doon kasama ang pagsagot sa tawag na kunwari'y hindi niya naririnig.

hanggang ginambala siyang muli ng munting sulo.
dumating na ang tao na umihip sa maliit na baga, hindi para ito'y patayin kundi para ito'y pagalabing muli.

ngayon siya na'y nalilito sapagkat may takot

for "the man"

2011-02-27T11:18:00.002+08:00

i know that im not the most beautiful girl that you have met
i know that i am not your ideal girl
but there's one thing i am sure of,
i can be the one lady who will love you through thick and thin,
for richer or poorer,
in bad days or good...

when love made me fearful

2011-02-13T12:22:00.001+08:00

its hard to accept but little by little i am realizing how much frightened i am to love again.

it feels like i have given all the love that i can possibly give to my one ex-boyfriend that i cant share love to other people anymore.

this is the weirdest feeling that i've ever felt in my entire life.

C .O . R . R . I . D . O . R

2011-02-07T20:25:00.001+08:00

the corridor of happenstance
our own version of “Where amazing things happen”
it is here where we
…cry because of failing grade
…laugh because of perfect exam results
…fall in love
…mend our broken heart
…find new friends
…quarrel with fakers
it is along this corridor where we began dreaming
and it also this corridor who will witness us fulfill it.

muntik nang masabihan ng "HULI ka!"

2011-02-07T20:12:00.002+08:00

she was walking along Dapitan a while ago when she thought of puffing a cigarette to ease her boredom but suddenly she remembered him.

three nights ago, at the same spot along Dapitan, she was about to buy a stick of marlboro lights but there were alot of people crowding the cigar stand so she had to wait, but she lost her patience and decided to buy in Antonio instead. when she was about to leave the cigar stand and involuntarily looked around, she saw him! to her astonishment, she walked fast and ignored him and his friend staring at him. she did not smoked from then on.

then she realized how he could change her by just a look in the eye.

he is the only man who can make her do bad habits and live a happy life.

:)

2011-01-30T01:06:00.000+08:00

UST Grand Alumni Homecoming

Plaza Mayor

2011-01-30T00:55:00.001+08:00

even i am amazed of everything happening
or maybe im just so overwhelmed with what the moment is giving me...

i dont wanna fall deeply because i might drown and die right then and there.
a couple more months.
a little more patience.

2010-12-12T17:27:00.002+08:00

isang reason kung bakit sobrang mahirap mag move on mula sayo...

alam kong alam mo na merong something

kaya lang dinededma mo.

ang wost part, ako na nga ang nag ttake ng courage at nag sstep up, binabalewala mo lang.

may araw na sobrang maayos tayo. tapos bigla bigla, kinabukasan deadma nanaman.

nacoconfuse na ako.

at sa sobrang confused ko, nalimutan ko na na merong tayong pag-asa.

at ngayon pagod na ako.

di mo na ako makikita sa corridors. di mo na ako mararamdaman. mawawala ako na parang hindi mo ako nakilala.

ayaw ko na Gits. mag momove on na ako.
masyado mona akong tinetake for granted.

2010-12-05T19:35:00.000+08:00

DanzFusion
December 2, 2010
Medicine Auditorium

performance by our professors!

i can watch this video over and over again!
lalo na kapag emomoments.
Lol!

2010-11-28T19:49:00.001+08:00

its really hard to have the feeling that you just cant really utter but if you have this hope that one day you will be able to say what you needed to say then the feeling will soften and life will go on as it is supposed to be.
love is twisted.
cupid sometimes play with our hearts . sometimes he just fail to hit that darn love arrow, but there will come a time he will hit it bull’s eye, we just have to wait.
good things come to those who wait. if you are ment for each other, then whatever will come in between will not matter because at the end you will still be together.

Amore Prima

2010-11-28T19:41:00.002+08:00

this is for the one man i have always wanted to be with, but because of very complicated complications, our future is really blurry.

Another World of Me

Numb as I possibly can. Let me not notice you

Let my eyes be far from your stare of thousand meanings

Yet, let not it be sole reason for you not to experience my marvel

I always miss you. I always wait for you

Forty-six hours feel like eternity…

Now is another lifetime

Unnoticed; this now is another world of my own

Stay in front of everybody and let loose of your words

Look me in the eye and illuminate my psyche

Come and edify me to embrace understanding

And after this now, do not leave elsewhere yet

Pause.

If in case I forget to bid goodbye, remind me

Be not like the ray of sunlight which can be seen seldomly

To glance is hard.

Coincidence would be great!

Corridors are our islets of happenstance.

And then I will miss you again

Confusing Addiction

Dashing through the corridor, I search for you

My darling, my morphine, my personal addiction

Hunting your bulgy eyes which sparkle like dew

Appear from nowhere and feed the thirst of my vision

I dress, I speak, I think, I live for your presence

Come and take my heart which beats for your essence

Love me, hate me, adore me or ignore me

Still faithfully until forever my heart is for thee

Albeit you having confusing actions

With you around life is always in proportions

Smile, be not a stranger, stay in front of me wholly

For it is you alone who takes away my melancholy

Beloved Stranger

Roses are now red and violets are now blue

My life has been colorful all because of you

Every waking morning is an excitement

It is again with you I will share every moment

I love you. You love me. No one will ever be a replacement

To unbreak our love has become God’s commandment

Not until this very day I ever lived

For how can I exist when we are parted?

Be not far from my loving arms of embrace

Each day as you dash though the corridors of homage

I’m just there walking, wandering, waiting to see your grace

Come Mister Big and let me feel your love and patronage

And I hope this present will last until ever after

Madly, deeply, crazily in love with my favorite stranger

Stay. Don’t change. Don’t let loose. Adore me forever

My new lover. My yesterday’s _____________r.

Tainted First Love

You told me that you will be my knight and shining armor

Taught me how to love and be loved again

Appreciated my beauty and glamour

Even though I’m wounded from war and villain.

Months and months I felt thy love endlessly

Like how you promised to my heart purposefully

You became the sole ideal man I ever wanted

Until that night I never expected you, daunted.

I asked why but you never answered

So I thought it was as simple as counting one till one hundred

I was wrong together with all of my judgments and expectations

You were a jerk just like my friend’s descriptions.

My trust is what you have just spoiled

The only thing I could give to someone I adored

Forever I will care for you as pure as the purest dove

The man who tainted my first love.

[poisonIvy]

eda.maningat

bad dream

2010-11-07T04:00:00.000+08:00

after our first Exam this morning, I went home to sleep a little before buying tickets for Equus.
I Woke up almost crying :(
my dream was so bad that i dont want to sleep ever again. :(
so here’s the story:
it was a typical wednesday afternoon at school,i was walking through the corridors, reading some notes when my phone rang..
it was Git’s mom, she was crying…
she told me that Gits died fifteen minuets ago because of heart attack. my jaw dropped in disbelief. i froze for a minuet and then rushed to their home to see him.
he was wearing a white shirt and a pair of jeans. his body was curled in a position that his head was almost touching his foot. maybe he was in severe pain.
..suddenly, as any dreams would always happen, i saw the past, during the attack.
he was alone in their living room,watching television, eating junkfoods when suddenly his chest started to tingle, as minuets pass by,the pain intensifies. he was shouting loudly but no one could hear him …and then the screaming vanished, his eyes shut, he was relieved, his heavy breathing stopped…he was dead.
i was crying (in my dream) all the while i was seeing how he yelled for help but nobody could hear him and all the while he was in intense pain and i can do nothing but watch.
i woke up when he was being transferred to a white bed…buti na lang nag alarm naang cellphone ko!
i was alone in our room and my vision was blurred of tears which just couldn’t fall.
i dont want to sleep again. so i left our room.
i wish i wont dream like this especially of him in it again. :(

sh*t!

2010-04-30T20:07:00.001+08:00

Sh*t..
months na pala ang binilang bago nagkaroon ng update itong blog ko.
SH*t..
ang dami-dami ko na din palang unfinished blog at nakatambak na silang lahat doon sa Edit Posts na folder tapos may naka lagay na draft.
SH*t...
ang tamad ko.
ang bobo ko.
at wala na akong time.

paborito ko kayang mag kwento, kaya lang bakit ganito. hindi na updated ang blog ko. :(
sabi ko pa naman sa sarili ko noong pinalitan ko ng bagong pangalan itong personal site na to na gagawin ko ang lahat para lang ma super update ang page na ito, kaya lang SH*T, kinurrupt talaga ako ng 3rd year second sem.

Yan, trip kong palitan ulit pangalan ng site ko..
Trip lang..
May tumblr na din ako at twitter..

iuupdate ko na nga to.. napapagalitan na din kasi ako ng mga taong nagtatsagang basahin an gmga sinusulat ko. XD

cinnamon swirl's haven

2010-03-20T18:57:00.002+08:00

cinnamon swirl plus a venti of frappe

will be the first aid of a broken heart.

..since that Starbucks Dapitan opened.

PLUS its extra worth for nocturnal crazy people

1. pampatanggal ng tama kapag nakainom/lasing

2. pampagising kapag nag-aaral

3. pagkain habang nag-papalipas ng oras

4. choice of breakfast or dinner

5. pampalamig

google's racism

2010-03-17T18:53:00.001+08:00

I was listening to Magic89.9's jock this early morning at around 4am while i was studying when the DJ advertised his tumblr page containing this racist' image taken from google!
nakakabadtrip lang! Ang racist nila!

tapos may tinag naman sakin yung isa kong friend sa facebook na lalong nakaka badtrip!

yung sa first picture, wala na ngayon.
pero yung sa Filipinos, yung iba nandoon pa din..

Grrr!

Badtrip!

Team Miracle's Success

2010-03-11T19:06:00.000+08:00

This morning at 9:30 am
Tuesday, 11th day of March,
we defended our Thesis Proposal for our Technical Writing Subject...

and it was alot BETTER that what we have expected from ourselves!

we call our group Team Miracle. Why and How?
On day one, when our president grouped us for this thesis/research, we never expected that we'd be grouped together; Pam, Francis, Laurie, Claire and I.
The three of us can almost be described as happy-go-lucky students because we party alot, drink every weekends and most of the time are too lazy to do school works. Claire is the only not-so-lazy person so she was really nervous about our group. She was so worried that we'd never finish, or that's we'd fall apart in the middle of doing it, or that we'd let her do all the research, typing, editing and almost everything.
That was a Tuesday night when all we did was to think and convince our president to regroup us but nothing happened. It was almost midnight when we finished discussing, arguing and admitting that we'd really be groupmates altogether.
We let go and let things happen, so we promised ourselves that we'd be doing the works fair-and-square.
One evening, when we were thinking about our title, while we were searching the internet about fun, interesting yet scientific stuffs, I stumbled upon a word which spells "MIRACLE". So i thought, since everyone of us, in our group, loves cramming, its just be good to call ourselves TEam MIRACLE.

Team Miracle - is a group of 5 cool, hot and clever college students struggling to finish their "thesis" as part of the requirements for their TW subject.

our group's name itself united us together. We were so fond of it that we created a Fan Page for it in Facebook who's fans can be counted with you fingers and toes. Hahaha LoL! Well, the main purpose of the Fan Page is to have a place where we can upload as many pictures of us, while doing the thesis. :D
click this and become one of our fans! LoL

Every time there is a paper to be passed for this Thesis Proposal, we do it the fast way- CRAMMING: Do Everything the Night Before.
The cycle is that we go to Laurie's Dorm, call their dorm guard and let him buy our dinner, facebook for about an hour and then when one gets sleepy at pasimpleng hihiga sa likuran namin, that's only the time when all of us be stimulated to be serious and do the researching, typing and editing, that will be around 9pm,plus there's he facebooking/admiring/youtube video viewing in the middle of the researching and reading part so most of the time, we end up at around 11pm-midnight. Sometimes, we do things alot faster than normal because we have exams in a lot of subjects pa the next day so we lessen the Facebooking period.

The First task was to submit a title together with objectives and problems and then back it up with abstracts or journal articles.
Our first five topics were all rejected. :D the funny thing about it, and also the reason why we accepted it was going to be rejected was that 4 out of 5 were about either about ALCOHOL or NICOTINE. Only one is the really thesis-type topic which was i guess accepted but we only needed to change one of our plant source. my favorite topic there was about Acetylcystein's effect on drug-induced hang-overs. hahaha LoL.
So we researched a little bit more and ended up with real Thesis-type topics and in that batch of topics where some were approved and others were rejected, we chose what we wanted to focus our study about.

The Second Task was to do a Matrix for the Review of Related Literature.
we researched in the Library's Online Databases (SCIENCE DIRECT and PRO-QUEST) everything we needed for the paper and then sent the links to our email addresses. The not-so-good part was that we never knew that night that those links can not be opened outside the University grounds, that we still need to connect to the University's Internet server to be able to acquire the full article. It was already around 9:30pm when we realized this super mega huge problem, so we decided that we will come early to school na lang in the morning to get those articles from the library na lang. The next morning, another not-so-good part happened again, Pam arrived at around 8:30 na (we have QC1 class at 9am) and she forgot the titles of the articles we needed to download pa. :D LoL! all we did was to laugh it off, some were disappointed but all in all, it was okay. we still have time, 8 hours at most because the papers should be passed at 5pm, after Pharmacology make-up class. So we downloaded the articles using the library's computers and then printed it out (during lunch break). We ate late lunch na lang during PharCare i guess (2:00-3:00pm) . The MIRACULOUS part was that we finished the MAtrix thing before 5pm!! How? well, during those minuets when Sir Ivan Tanodra was discussing his stuff about pharmacology, we did the matrix! hahaha.. Pam, Claire, LAurie and I divided the works, one person per article. By the time Sir Gavino Ivan was done with his discussion, we were at the back shutting Laurie's Mac Book na.. hahahahaha!

The Third Task was to do the entire Chapter 1.
I already forgot how we were able to come up with a Chapter 1 that Tuesday morning, basta all i remembered was that I di my part (Backgroud of the Study/Introduction) in a computer shop full of cute guys shouting bad words at each other while playing DOTA. and then Claire compiled it and printed it at around 6:30 am that same Tuesday morning when we were to submit it. :D

The Fourth Task was to do Chapter2.
Again, we divided the parts of chapter 2 among ourselves. We did "something similar" with editing at Laurie's place, (they lang pala. natulog lang kasi ako sa likuran nila habang ginagawa yung kung ano man yun. LoL) Ginawa ko lang yung part ko pag kauwi dito sa dorm. I could still vividly remember that Monday night, just last Monday night when all i was granted was around 2 and a half hours of sleep because i still waited for Francis' part to be emailed and then i still edited the entire thing with Pam's snore as my background music. And we still have quizzes for all of our subjects that day: Tuesday. i slept at around 4am that Tuesday morning. I had real fun that night! :)

And the LAst task was to Defend our Thesis Proposal
Again, we did the entire preparation only the night before, it was a Wednesday night at Laurie's dormroom. They did the power point preparation while I prepared myself for my Laboratory examination: CBC night at UST Hospital.
The slides were't finished yet by 7am and our defense will be AT 9:30 AM and i still dont have a formal clothing to wear and pam just left their home at Pasig! hahahhaa..
Cramming..
one hour before defense, our slides are still lacking its components and we were all really pressured. LoL
30minuets before our defense, we still dont have a hard copy of our Thesis Papers for the Panelists and Pam is still not around.
Francis did a Miracle and printed, the fastest he could, those Papers for the Panelists and then Pam arrived and 5 minuets before our turn to defend what we have done, we put on some sort of formal clothing. actually, mukha nga kaming mag paparty sa bar. LoL. hahaha

During the Defense, it wasnt perfect yet it wasnt a disaster.
Our Thesis is FEASIBLE! it is "DOABLE" sir Jay Jazul said.

some of our classmates told us that we had the second to the highest grade that morning, while others said we had the Highest score. I dont know. I/We dont care.
ALL WE CARE ABOUT IS THAT OUR THESIS PROPOSAL IS DONE AND IT IS FEASIBLE FOR Fouth Year!
hahaha

What A MIRACLE!

I wrote this something to remind me/us that one day, we did something incredible WITHOUT ASKING ANYBODY'S help.
We did a Thesis Paper with the most we can do. And defended it in the best way be can.
(kahit na nang loloko lang talaga si Francis nang sinabi nyang magbibigay kami ng something sa mga manufacturing laboratory para malaman ang importance ng SoyBean Oil as Table Lubricant. hahaha
at Nanloloko lang din siya nung sinabi niyang meron kaming basis/standard na plant material na pag cocompare-an ng gagawin naming SoyBean Oil Extract as Tablet LUbricant. hahaha LOL! :D)

Sometimes, we just have to believe in ourselves that we can do something over what we think we are only capable of because maybe, just maybe, this gamble will help us know even more of ourselves and learn that we still could stretch ourselves from what we are, what we have and what we are capable of doing today for the better and for the future.
Thesis Writing is not just about having a witty cranium, I / We learned based on what we have experienced that Thesis Writing as also about Team Work, great Imagination and alot of Inspiration (from facebook espacially. hahahab LoL!)

Now that Thesis is done, only the Alcohol, good memories and tighter friendship bond will hold us together.

The use of Hydrogenated Vegetable Oil Specifically Soybean Oil as Tablet Lubricant

(i revise daw namin, dapat daw
"The Use of Soybean Oil as Tablet Lubricant"
na lang)

ÜÜÜ

Cac, Christine Claire
Carreon. Laurie Moreen
Mallari, Pamela Ann Mae
Maningat, Maria Eda
Ty, Francis Adrian

thanks, i really enjoyed that One Semester of working with your guys.
buti na lang masyadong tight ang friendship natin kaya hindi tayo nag fall apart.

I ♥ You!
:)
XOXO
-eda

Cramming

2010-03-09T01:56:00.000+08:00

Our wall clocks says its already 3am but i think its lying..
my dormmate told me that its twenty minuets advance two weeks ago, well, i dont come late for class anymore so maybe they advanced the time a little bit more..

This is the second night i've been deprived from sleep this week.. and its only a Monday night!

last night (Sunday night), i slept at around 1am and woke up at around 630am.
i did nothing but read, memorize and understand things.
coffee helped me through those struggling moments when all i wanted was to sleep on my bed and forget about QC Lecture quiz, Pharmcognosy Practical Exam, Manufacturing Lecture Quiz and Pharmacognosy Lecture Quiz. (im not the nerd-type.i just watch-out from failing grades XD)

i do this all the time, i cram.. like a typical college student, i love cramming. its fun for me. and it makes my learning more interesting because i when i cram, i start to learn fast and understand faster and then that's it.. im ready for exams which my other classmates studied for nights. (yabang!) LoL!

Yesterday (technically it happened yesterday na because its already Tuesday now), our professors in Parmacognosy Laboratory got mad at us. as in their heads were smoking! and we were so afraid that we want to bring back those minute seconds during our Practical Exam.
Another 3 Plant specimens were broken during the practical exams. We already destroyed 2 specimens last week. So now, they are furious about it. They are saying that somebody destroyed the specimens in purpose because the way it was broken was so perfect, it can only be done intentionally. Mam David, one of our professor in Pharmacognosy Lab who is also our professor in Pharmacognosy Lec was so mad about it and she was shouting in front of our class during lecture hours and said "Kung sino man ang tumarantado sa plant specimens na yon, umamin na! Kundi buong klase madadamay!" She told us that she's going to recompute our grades and when that happens, almost three quarters of our class will fail, maybe including myself. Yes, she can do that. She just showed alot of mercy solving our grades during prelims that's why we passed the period, but if she recomputes it, then we are DEAD!
After class, one of our classmates admitted his fault and said sorry. And all we need to do now is to find CEYLON CINNAMON, ERGOT, SAGE, HYSDRATIS and i forgot the other specimen.

Now, i need to fight against this sleepy feeling again. Im kinda nauseous already but i cant let it get in to me.
I still need to finish Chapter 2 of our Thesis which will be passed tomorrow at 8:30am. My groupmates are already snoring behind me so i really dont have a choice but to finish this myself.
Plus, i still need to go crazy over Pharmacology, the one subject im not lazy to study for.
and then there's the pressure over that long exam at HECO class, Technical Writing, Manufacturing Pharmacy Lab., Quality Control Laboratory plus our defense on Thursday!
Ohhh my..
:D
This is fun!

If college life is a bingo game, then we'd be winning most of the time.
For example, tomorrow, we have exams in all our Subjects, two minor subjs. plus 3 Major Subjs.
BINGO. full house. :D

This is F - U - N!!!
Life's never been interesting.
College has really its own way of changing how people live their lives.

and tomorrow night, i will rest and sleep until the day breaks behind my curtains..until the sun sets infront of our television..

and i'm still going to put here gits' memory..
his cute bulgy eye, his suuper witty psyche, his blue eye glasses and fatty yet hottie figure.

...
that's about it for this morning, i should do my job na.
byeeee

XOXO
-e

Bicolana Pizza

2010-03-07T14:45:00.000+08:00

Thin crust pizza topped with bicolandia's Bicol Express..

yummy!

sa CamSur Watersports Complex (CWC) ko pa lang siya na tikman and i dont know kung saan pang place nakakabili nito..

At first akala ko yucky pero first bite pa lang, gusto ko nang mag bite ulit for more!

Tama lang na thin crust ang ginamit nila kasi kung yung thick ay para ka nang kumakain ng rice at ulam.
Hindi siya maanghang; siguro para na din sa mga tourists na hindi mahilig sa spicy foods although sapalagay ko dapat maanghang siya para malasahan ng lahat ang tunay na chili ng bicol. anyway pwede nang lagyan ng madaming hot sauce.

And everytime na uuwi ako ng Bicol, palagi ko itong titikman..

:)

talk about Platonic Relationship white board

2010-03-04T19:10:00.001+08:00

Every Mondays and Wednesdays, we are assigned at room 202 at the Main Building from 1pm-4pm. I don’t really care what section they are before us or what subject are they discussing about which always keep us waiting till exactly or a little bit later than 1 pm, all I know is that their year level are lower than us, so that make me/us proud of ourselves. LoL. Today was an exemption, because when I entered the classroom, there were three questions written using a purple colored white board marker big enough to catch a student’s attention.

It also says that their answers to the teacher’s question must be passed tomorrow (March4,2010 –which is technically today since it is already 1:30am) put in yellow pad paper.

Since I know (I think I do) the English instructor who asked this “emo” question on the white board, I’m going to try and answer it, too bad I can’t pass this to the teacher.

(hindi ko na napicturan kasi nasaharapan na yung prof. namin, nag didiscuss ng solutions :p)

So here are the questions:

1. In your opinion, does platonic relationships really exist? Explain Exhaustively.
Yes platonic relationships really exist. I can tell you that from what I’ve seen, felt or experienced in my nineteen years of existence.
First, since I wasn’t there when the instructor instructed about this “Platonic relationship”, let me first illuminate you about this two-word noun (tama bang noun yon? Di ko alam. Hehe).
I “googled” it off and here is my most liked meaning:
PLATONIC:
1. The tendency of women to develop close friendships with their male acquaintances, thereby pre-emptively eliminating any possibility of a romantic relationship, the result of which is to remove the poor schmuck's heart and shred it

2. The process by which attractive and otherwise eligible women, when faced by proffered declarations of romantic interest by a male acquaintance, destroy the ego and spirit of said acquaintance by declaring that they only want to be "friends."
Typical response from a female to a male in a platonic relationship:

"I have feelings for you too, I don't want to do anything that could jeopardize our friendship. You're like a brother to me."

www.urbanictionary.com

I know that my source is not that reliable but all of the other more reliable website tell almost the same. I liked this more because of the “schmuck’s heart” word. :D

My answer: I do believe that platonic relationship exists because human heart cannot be dictated, if you feel you are intensely attracted to that one person but he treats you only like a normal colleague or friend, you can never dictate your heart to stop loving that one person you are so fond of. For a good portion of us, attraction to the opposite sex is genetically “hardwired” into our psyche. There’s no way to avoid it. We find the physical form of the opposite sex attractive, the opposite sex exudes pheromones that we find attractive, even something as simple of the timbre of the voice of a member of the opposite can trigger a romantic response in us. Add to that the fact that nothing makes a romantic relationship more successful then when the people involved are “friends first”, and it’s easy to see why platonic relationships can be difficult to keep strictly platonic. Feelings especially that of love is not like a TV station where you can just turn off once the TV anchor tells you to turn the TV off and he then tells you to listen to the radio instead. Like in being in love, you can’t just shut your heart off one person you want to watch, admire, see, mingle, care for, attend to, or love all day long just because he tells you, “I don’t love you back”.
Although many platonic relationships do not work well, it starts when romantic feelings spring up in both parties, then the friendship turns into a romantic relationship and everyone is happy. But a good portion of the time only one of the friends becomes attracted to the other, and then the platonic relationship is in trouble. But I believe that if you are really fond of that one person; your friend, especially if you have been friends for a very long time, you are willing to suffer all the pains just to be with him and continue what you have. In a relationship, it is not always about having fun and being in calm waters because sometimes it is the struggle that spice up the relationship, even for a platonic relationship.
Platonic relationship is really hard to handle and it takes a brave heart, an open mind and courage to keep the relationship going.

2. Why is that sometimes platonic relationships turn sour?
Platonic relationships sometimes turn sour when one of the two parties(her) demand more that what the other party(him) can give. Another point is when she can no more handle the frustration and pain their relationship is causing her.

3. Would you rather stay with your friend even if he does not love you back? Or would you just turn and walk away because you don’t want to get hurt?
This is the question for those stereotype people who has fallen in love with their best friend or one friend in his/her circle of friends.

I would answer this question as if I have fallen in love with my real life best friend.

I would rather stay with my friend even if he does not love me back. In the first place, he is still my friend who held my hand as I cross the dark phases of my life and the same friend who laughed with me during the funniest moments of my journey. He is still that one guy friend who was, not only the closest thing to being my brother, but also the one man I’d like to waste the rest of my day with. The only problem which complicates things is when I felt a deeper kind of love, a love other than “philia”, a love which is named in Latin as “amore”.

It’s weird having this sentiment, especially when I have nobody to share it to since the one guy I tell all my secrets to, is the same secret I keep from the world. Yet, I will stay with my best friend as “best friends” since friendships are never broken so I can still make him feel my love all the time we are together. It is okay to be just friends with him even though I already love him because I believe that one’s lover must also be one’s best friend.

It is really hard to keep yourself from being in love with one guy who would always be sweet for you everyday, who would always walk you home, who would always eat with you during lunch and dinner, who would always buy you ice cream whenever you are sad, who would always give you a big hug when you achieve something incredible and a guy friend who would always be there for you no matter what. Who would not fall for your her definition of Mister right when he is right there by your side, as best friend. He who would give you all but not love.

Platonic relationships really exist, and the thing that’ll make it sour is when she grows tired of loving him but at the end, she would still choose to be with him and be there to make him feel her love rather than to just walk away and be afraid to get hurt.

Credits to
www.urbandictionary.com
http://www.entertainmates.com

If in case I forget to bid goodbye

2010-02-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

Numb as I possibly can, let me not notice you
Let my eyes be far from your stare of a thousand meanings
Yet, let not it be the sole reason for you not to experience my marvel

I missed you. I waited for you.. 46 hours felt like eternity..

Now is another lifetime
Unnoticed; this now is another world of my own

Stay in front of the world and let loose of your words.

Look me in the eye and illuminate my psyche
Come and edify me to embrace understanding
And after this now, do not leave elsewhere yet
Pause.

If in case I forgot to bid goodbye, remind me
Be not like the ray of sunlight which can be seen seldom

To glance is hard.
Coincidence would be great!
Corridors are our isle of happenstance.

And then I will miss you again.

work out time!

2010-02-21T01:41:00.000+08:00

kapag ...

napasobra na ang pag paparty..
napasobra na ang pag fofood trip..
napasobra na ang pag-inom..
napasobra na ang pag relax..

mejo magugulat ka na lang bigla na mataba ka na pala at may bilbil ka na sa tsan.
di na maisuot ang paboritong pantalon at masikip na ang paboritong top.

kaya bigla kang maaalarma at titigilan na ang maliligayang araw at mag didiet na.

tamang tama lang ang panahon ngayon para simulan ang diet:
1. Cuaresma : sakto sa fasting o abstinence.
2. May sapat na panahon pa para maging sexy pag dating ng summer
3. Makakapagipon para sa future gimmick dahil mababawasan ang bibilhin na pagkain

it's time to work out!
jogging, sit-ups, minus calorie intake, gym
kailangan hottie ang kolehiyala sa summer kapag rumampa na ulit nang naka bikini sa CWC.

ganito ang aim natin girlfriends...

yung tipong pag accidentally nahawakan mo, hindi sya soft dahit puno ng fats at bilbil.
ewwww

or pwedeng ding ganito

na kapag naiangat ng konti ang shirt, may makikitang six little cute squares..

we can do this!

Paboritong quotable quotes today

2010-02-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

1. Exam ka ba? nauubos kasi oras ko kakatitig sayo.
(nakita ko yan sa desk ko nakasulat ng blue pen kanina habang pharmacognosy). inagaw ang atensyon ko.
totoo naman kasi diba. lalo na kapag problem solving ang exam. lalo na yung mga tipo ng problem na nakakapamroblema talagang isolve. lalo na yang Compleximetry at Redox sa Lab. kahit paano pa balibaliktarin yung mga numbers na given, di talaga..parang mali yung percent purity kasi sobra sa 100%. o kaya yung edta, sobrang laki ng parts per million na parts per billion na ang kinalalabasan. sabay LoL na lang at katok sa scientific calculator praying na may magic ito at ibigay ang tamang computation.
isa pa yang practical exam sa pharmacognosy. in a matter or seconds dapat masagot mo ang tanong kundi tutunog na ang bell ni kuya glen at say goodbye ka na sa one point. suuuper pasalamat na ang mga nakaka atleast ten mistakes. halleluia! pero wala naman kaming choice kundi sumagot lang ng sumagot ng mga words na parang out of this world. sabay LoL na lang ulit at maririnig mo na ang "ring"..ring"... :D
pero may twist ang practical exam ng inyong lingkod kanina dahil habang nasa station number 17 ako, 10 seconds pa lang ang nakalilipas, habang iniimagine ko ang itsura ng reviewer ko nang nakadungaw sa bintana ng FLR Lab4 at biglang dumaan yung ultimate crush ko this semester! Natulala ako sakanya sabay labas ng thought na "honeycomb of beeswax". palagay ko yun yung tamang sagot so sinulat ko na "ring".."ring"... sabi ng timer ni kuya Glen. good bye station 17 na.

2. Oohh my GoOood! Daga?
(hulaan kung sino ang nagsabi!) haha :p
meron tumatakbong mga salita sa imagination ko pero di ko na lang sasabihin, baka bukas lang o next week singko na pala, automatically, ang grade ko.. LoL!
blind item muna. kunwari hindi siya kilala ng mga ka year level ko.
sorry boss. nagvavlag lang. :p

nakakawala ng pagod yung mga nakikita at naririnig ko.
masaya naman pala yung Pharmacy na course.
:)

nakakapagod lang talaga minsan.

sabi nila, palagi na lang daw kami nagrereklamo sa mga bagay.
sabi ko naman, okay lang mag reklamo kahit wala na ring dahilan ang nirereklamo, hindi naman bumabagsak and besides, sumusunod pa rin naman kami kasi as if naman may choice kami. LoL

kaya namin ito.
2011 gagradweyt kami

special mention sa mga ka group ko sa "thesis"
tawag namin sa group namin:TEAM MIRACLE

XOXO
-e

falling in love with Running

2010-01-24T15:09:00.000+08:00

my Kuya started the craze about running..
then his girlfriend .. then her housemate.. then her bestfriend and his boyfriend..

they go to almost all Fun Run (LoL..XD) like Condura Run, Thrill of the Trail, The Big Blue Run, The Bull Run, Century Super Bud Run, Men's Health Urbanathlon, PhilStar Celebrity Run ..etc..etc..

i always come with them, para wala lang. makiosyoso sa sport which captured may Young Professional's attention.
i take their pictures.

until one Sunday afternoon, while they were out jogging around Sunken Garden, i was left alone at the car reading pharmacognosy. it was sad and booring. and i thought, what if i run with them?
i can do that..
i used to run the whole oval in Dinalupihan.

so the thursday after that Sunday i tried running around UST. just for fun..
just to kill time..
and i felt it..
what they call "THE RUNNER'S HIGH"

and i became addicted to it.

yung pakiramdam parang kagaya ng kapag lasing ka..
the pain, your lungs shouting for oxygen, your numb legs, your sweaty body, the cool breeze..
it all come together.

after that night, i wanted to run and run everyday..
everyday i can, as long as i have free time..

So here's my Running Status.
I got the questions from The Bull Runner's blogsite @ www.thebullrunner.com
(i met her na, sa ROX sa High Street habang nagreregister sina kuya for PhilStar Celebrity Run. she's really cool and kind and beautiful. :) )

When did you start running? January 12, 2010
Where do you run? around UST's open field
How often do you run? 2x-3x a week
Do you run alone or with others? Preference? I do both. I enjoy running with friends, but I also run alone to relax and think about things.. :)
What is your favorite running accessory? i dont have any running accessories yet since i just started running two weeks ago, except for my Mizuno shoes
What is the best benefit of running for you? i feel relaxed when i run plus it's also my stress-reliever. :) and when im on Runner's High already, i feel great and happy and FREE! :)
What is your running goal? To be a lifelong runner…oh, and the New York Marathon!! :)
Why do you run? im still finding the main reason why im Falling inlove with running right now. :)

Come on, Let's run!!!

Ms. Maningat RPh

2010-01-24T09:32:00.000+08:00

the Future of Patient Counseling

Bid Goodbye to MEDICATION MISADVENTURES
Say Hello to Pharmacoeconomic living!

Let's Improve Patient's Quality of Life!
:D

XX Blog. Hate!

2010-01-13T17:46:00.000+08:00

FIRST and LAST

She did not attend his class last time, a lot of them did not.
She admitted it in front of his face when her classmate asked her to help her answer his question.
"Ms. ..., wala ka rin last time diba?" and
she answered "Yes sir!"
He said, "Okay but ... Okay so ..." (he fires his question)
He was like talking to her casually but this time it was about Drug Interactions.
She tried to listen but there's something wrong.

She skipped his class for a reason. She knows it was wrong but she did not feel any guilt. She believed on "The end justifies the mean."

He knows she wasn't around during his class. He knows her. He asked about her. Her classmate told the kolehiyala.

She called her during recitation today after his quiz which she studied yet missed to memorize what was essential, she did not know the answer. She did not understand his lesson by herself last night too. He tried to get her through, he tried to help her but those words he was speaking was like being backfired to him. Her ears was shut. Her mind wasn't working. She was mentally absent. She never understood him. And then she said "I dont know sir." then his head moved sideways in a little disappointment. He made her sit and explained what was he asking her. Still, she was mentally absent.

Her heart was beating faster than normal since her HECO Class, her stomach was like being tickled. It was not butterflies in the stomach this time. She felt really bad, as in her body was not functioning properly. She thought her heart might crash anytime.

Plus she hated him. She regretted the fact that she liked him before.
She wanted to kill herself in front of his cute bulgy eyes and let him see her little bloody heart. She hated herself because she hates him now.

Maybe all is her fault. Maybe she should have just attended his class and ignored him in front and do her undone homework then review for her quizzes.

For a moment, while her other classmates were being tortured with very logical questions from his witty cranium, she felt sadness because she was tempted to cut his class the other day, to not attend a Major Subject for a pharmacy student.

Tonight She will Study.
She will read Chapter 24: Adverse Drug Reaction and some chapters from their prescribed book.
Tonight she is more than motivated to scan her sources of information for tomorrow's lesson.
Tomorrow she will let him forget about his disappointment.
The kolehiyala can do that.

minsan este kadalasan lang talaga TAMAD si kolehiyala.

got to go guys.
need to study.

XOXO
E.

bitter

2010-01-09T02:26:00.000+08:00

hindi ako sigurado kung heart broken ba talaga ako or niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko.
blahh..blahh..blahh..
Gago ba siya para di nya maramdamang "i like him"
Hindi "ilovehim"

bagay yung theme song na "Langit ka, Lupa ako"

paano ba yung pag MOVE-ON???
f*ck that "Move on thing"
i've been trying so hard to learn how to do it since last Summer pa. but my gawwd..its soo difficult.
how do we move on?
nabibili ba yan? magkano?
napapag-aralan ba yan? saan at mag eenroll ako.

parang inaalam ko kung paano tanggalin ang puso ko sa chest cavity ko nang hindi namamatay. o kaya parang inaalam ko kung paano tanggalin yung part ng brain ko na siya ang lamang memory nang hindi napaparalyze.

minsan na nga lang mag function normally yung heart ko, ganito pa..
tsktsk.

bitter ako ngayong gabi..

i think, i might need some
of this:

oh, hindi lang ako nag-iisa sa problemang yan.. dahil around 50% ng mga kolehiyalang online pa ngayong oras (3:09am) ngayong gabi gaya ko ay nalulungkot rin at ginagawang parang alak ang computer.
nagpapakalasing, nagpapakalango, nagpapakasabog sa radiation ng monitor na umiilaw habang nakikinig ng paboritong f*ucking heart-break song.

XOXO
E.

mY narcissism :D

2010-01-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

kailangan kong pakalmahin, ayusin at tapusin ang kaguluhan at pagtatanong ng mga taong hindi mapakali katititig.

boys: opo. ako yan. relax lang! haha
girls: opo. ako yan. takes 50sits ups every time bored ako. hahaha. wag nang mainsecure! LoL!! XD
gays: hindi yan super edited. Crop lang, at konting lagay ng vignette gamit ang Light Room, okay na. hahaha

............
BEFORE......................................After

Minsan lang naman ako magkaganitong pics, me kumokontra't nagtatanong pa. :p

hahahahahaaha!
hahahahahahaha!
sige, tawa pa!
hahahahahahahaha!
:D

XOXO
E.

bakit nag cu-CUt ng Class?

2010-01-07T09:27:00.000+08:00

guilty ako!

Sino sa mga kolehiyala, at sa mga college student ang hindi pa naranasang mag cut ng class?

ang tawag sakanila: NERD. walang social life. pakamatay na dapat sila.

20 reasons kung bakit nag cu-cut ang kolehiyalang ito:

1. may recitation - hindi nakapagbasa kagabi
2. may quiz - hindi nakapag-aral.
(aasa sa special exam na ibibigay. kunwari nagkasakit. pepekein ang medical certificate. pano? papapirma sa kaibigang doktor)
3. may exam sa susunod na subject na mas importante -mag-aaral na lang
4. nagbavibrate na yung tsan sa gutom -kakain na lang
5. hindi nagising ng maaga -nagoversleep sa dorm -kakagimmick o kakababad sa computer kagabi
6. may gagawin pang report para sa susunod na subject
7. may gagawin pang assignment o sasagutan pa ang data sheets
8. manghihiram ng lab. gown o bibili ng bagong apparatus para sa laboratory
9. nakakaantok ang boses ng prof. -makakatulog lang din naman, sa dorm na lang
10. inaya ng bf/gf na mag date na lang sa may quadri o carpark
11. naimpluwensyahan ng barkada -gagawin ang bad habits
12. jebs na jebs na. -as in hindi na makayanan. kailangan nang umuwi
13. sobrang late nang dumating sa class -hindi na lang papasok. kakain na lang.
14. masyadong nalamigan sa org.room -nasarapan kaya matutulog na lang dun
15. may project/activity ang org. -minsan lang naman. pagbigyan na
16. may gimmick -manonood ng sine sa trinoma (yun ang malapit eh) / kakain sa Taco Bell, mag-iinuman
17. crush ang prof. -magpapaka bitter at hindi papasukan ang subject
18. sira ang aircon, mainit sa classroom -library na lang. self-study, malamig pa
19. walang kwenta mag turo ang professor -mas magaling ang seatmate/kabarkada na DL
20. hindi interesado sa subject -english, HECO, technical wrting. yung subject na tipong common sense lang. mayabang ako eh. :D

masarap talaga yung kolehiyo.
maraming maraming natututunan.
at hindi nyo siya dapat ikumpara sa highschool mga kids, dahil sa highschool, aminin nyong kahit paano ay manginginig kayo kapag nasabihan kang "Pinapatawag ka sa Guidance Office" o kaya "Pinapatawag ka sa Principal's Office"

walang ganyan sa kolehiyo.

walang principal! Dean lang. (na palaging may meeting o may klase sa Graduate School kaya wala sa office nya)

ang kolehiyalang ito ay hindi santa.
at okay lang sakanya na mapunta sa impyerno! :D
(kasi at least siya ang kaisa-isang gorgeous,hot kolehiyalang nasa implyerno na nagmamahal kay God)

OMG.

GTG Guys.

see you when i see you!
Like i'll see you talaga.
harhar

XOXO
-E.

Bak to independens!

2010-01-03T14:46:00.000+08:00

Yes mga lola, nakabalik na ang Dyosa sa indipendens na tinitake for granted nya every second of it!

at dahil doon,wala pa ako gaanong maisip bukod sa pag gimmick at sa patuloy na pag tunaw sa laman loob ko. :D

halina jan sa D.Square sa byernes ng gabi mga prends. XD

Nagpaapakilala ang bagong blogger (kunwari)

2010-01-02T19:44:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
at dahil new year, kelangan daw may something new sa kin
********************************************************************

Okay fine, pinalitan ko na ang pangalan ng blog ko.
at dahil pinalitan ko na kelangan daw magpakilala ako ulit.

HELLO Sayo at WELKAM SA BLOG KO! :)

Kunwari na lang ako yung kolehiyala na mahilig maglamyerda sa kung saan saan at pumupunta sa kahit anong pleys dalhin ng aking feet.
Kunwari ako yung kolehiyala na nakatambay sa me kanto ng dapitan at naglolollipop sabay banat ng kwento kasama ang hotties sa eskwela.
Kunwari ako yung kolehiyala na nagpaparty tuwing Byernes ng gabi don sa me The Fort. Emba, Alchemy, Encore.name it, im der!
Kunwari ako yung kolehiyala na fashionista na maiksi pa sa micro mini skirt ang suot pang-baba habang rumarampa sa entabledo ng academe.
Kunwari ako yung kolehiyala na inuUno ang mga subject gaya ng Botany, Pharmacognosy, Pharmacology o Trigonometry.
Kunwari ako yung cool, hip, witty kolehiya jan sa me Dapitan at nag-aabang sa pagdating ng 2011, kung kelan gagradweyt na sa mga pahirap ng unibiersidad ko.

Isipin mo na lang ako yung kolehiyala sa panaginip mo.
yung seksi kolehiyalang nagpatulo sa laway mo noong nakaraang Byernes sa Bar.
yung super hotness kolehiyalang nagpabalik-balik sayo sa Bora at CWC.
Sige na, isipin mo na lang rin, ako yung kolehiyala na magaling magsulat. frustrated writer ang inyong lingkod.

At Dahil isa lang naman akong Normal na kolehiyala, normal na tamad talaga ako.
tinamad na akong gumawa ng bagong blog site kaya gagamitin ko na lang itong luma.
Tinamad na rin kasi akong mag-isip ng bagong pangalan ng blog.
At tinamad na akong magintindi kung paano ba ginagamit yung wordpress (dun daw ako lumipat sabi ng mga kaberks ko eh) since hindi naman ako katalinuhan kagaya ng madla.

Pagpasennsyahan nyo na:
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Pramis, gagawin ko lahat, maka Zero na ako sa pharmacology at Pharmacognosy, makapag blog lang ng maayos ayos.

HELLO Sayo at WELKAM SA BLOG KO! :)

Para bang

2009-12-30T18:11:00.000+08:00

nakipag break sa isang relasyong hindi naman nag-eexist
binasted ng taong hindi naman niligawan
inindyan ng kadate na hindi naman sinabihan
di nireplyang ng katext na hindi naman tinext

para bang binuhusan ng malamig na tubig ang pusong nagliliyab sa pag-ibig.
para bang inekisan ang sagot na check naman dapat
para bang nag goodbye sa hello

para bang winasak ang pusong hindi naman nabuo
para bang naglaho sa kamay ang bagay hindi naman hinawakan

kanikanina lang,
parang inilock-out na nya ang mundo nya sa mundo ko.
13 years lang naman ang pagitan ng daigdig namin.
hindi naman kami parang langit at lupa.

Okaya baka natamaan siya sa stat ko na :
"He's 93% gay"

bading ka kasi.
:p

sa hinaharap, luluhod ka sa harapan ko at magmamakaawa.

salamat at tinutulungan mo akong kalimutan ka.
salamat at kahit papaano hindi na ako mahihirapang makaget-over sayo.
salamat at makakasagot na ako sa recitation ng maayos.

*at doon nag tatapos ang kwento namin ng
lalake sa kulay green kong tumbler.
ng lalake sa corridor.

some things i'll miss for two weeks of vacation

2009-12-22T08:44:00.000+08:00

1. dapitan night life

who would not miss that crazy night around dapitan?

not only do i miss the sweet alcohol from Tapsi, Da Pit and 330mL
but also
that dead tired feeling when i walk our from our campus dizzy, having stinging headache and the sensation of being tortured (which always haunt me and reminds of an extended laboratory work at FLR Lab4 because of pharmacognosy)
and also that
disappointed feeling after you see that colorful test papers of yours, week after your exam week with not so nice scores
and the
24/7 computer shops which become battle ground for computer games addict, refuge for those who were locked our of their dormitory because they did not come home before curfew and home for those who simply like to surf the net, facebook all night long and chat unstoppably.
plus
the newly opened Starbucks coffee a the ground floor of Pacific Suites which becomes the habitat of bookworms and nerd people at midnight
as well as those
27/7 tapsihan especially along Asturias. they rock the night when one is hungry and at the same time nagtitipid! :D
whle wendy's is open 24/7 too for those hindi nagtitipid! :D
(and their washroom is open too, so for those drunk people wandering arond dapitan at night, straighten up your walk and go to the fourth floor of Wendy's, its for free!) XD
also the
Seven11 and Ministop which sells the most luscious cigarettes when all the bangketa's are already closed.

[i think its safe naman to walk around dapitan at night because i see some security guard and barangay tanod watching the area)

2. 4th floor's Open Sandwich
this is the most awesome food inside the Main building of the University of Santo Tomas!!!
why?
because when your stomach is already grunting and your intestines are already eating and digesting each other but you do not have enough time to eat (because either you are going to do your assignments, laboratory manual or report pa or you you just robbed a couple of minuets in between classes) just go up to the top most floor of the oldest building in Asia and there you'll find the BigMan frying the coolest food for your starving stomach:
OPEN SANDWICH!
50Pesos.
busog ka na!
(egg, your choice kung paano i ffry, footlong hotdog, a pair of sandwich)

3. Dorm/condo/apartment - Life
there are two things i miss about living independently in Manila

ONE: you can do what ever you want to. you have the choice.

you get to choose to either ruin your life,
drink alcohol every night, ignore your professors as frequently as you want to, puff cigarette every other minuet, not attend your classes all day long, fail exams, fail your subjects, fail your course and be kicked out of your university
OR you get the choice to be nerdy, read book all day long inside the library, loose friends, ace your exams, perfect your quizzes, forget about social life, get 1.0 in your class cards, be magna cumlaude, become a loner eating by himself in a fancy restaurant.
OR you get the choice to be cool and stay at school and have goals in life. attend class as long as there are scheduled classes, you may be late sometimes sa first class in the morning, not get perfect scores all the time yet get perfect scores some times, go online and surf the internet after class, then read and study in the library or in your home after internet, puff a few cigarettes, hang out with friends (who will become your life-ling colleague), go out with barkada every weekends or every time you're free, not forget about advance reading, do reports and assignment ahead of time (para makaHang-ut or gimmick pa rin kahit super tight na ng schedule :D), drink liquor sometimes, do not sleep if it's already 4am and you just finished reviewing and your exam is seven or eight in the morning (promise, you wont wake up na! unless there's a concerned roommate). finish your course without an F in your class cards, graduate in time (sige, graduate cum laude or graduate magne cumlaude!) XD

TWO: you have the freedom to be suuuuper tamad all day long. wake up late in the morning (if there are no classes). eat whenever you want to (eat all day or not eat because you are soo lazy to get up form bed). get to be infront of the computer as long as you can (maybe until your eyes are bloody red already). watch your ants travel around the walls of your kitchen.

4. Professors
who wont miss them?

when they laugh at you right after they give loads and loads of requirements, reports, assignments and you have one week to figure out how to be able to pass them in time.
when they come inside your freezing classroom with a bundle of test papers with problems to be solved which you aren't ready yet to answer
when they schedule a quiz which happens to be in the same day with your other subjects' quizzes
when they assign you a report which you have no clue what is it about
when then call you to recite the entire Kreb's Cycle or when they call you to answer their on-the-spot question which you happened to not know because you have not reached that page for advance reading.
when they keep rejecting your thesis proposals
when they chuckle after they give you your answer sheet in your exam
when they tell you, "kaya nyo yan. tsaga lang"
when they consider your schedule and show some love and move scheduled exams
when they pass you in their subjects
when they talk to you, like kabarkada and advice you what to do to be able to hold on the the remaining weeks of the semester.
when they smile at you and show them they cared for you and for the rest of his students

5. Pharmacology + Pharmacognosy

who would not miss the traumatic life in FLR Lab 4 every MWF 10-12am?
two weeks will be our break from Pharmacognosy. two weeks will feel like heaven on earth!
because when the classes resume, there ill be a FESTIVAL of QUIZZES for us, again.
another almost 150 scientific names to memorize.
biologicals.
chapters and chapters of quizzes..
practical tests..
laboratory works..
every meeting overtime Lecture hours..
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Pharmacology!
my favorite subject.
why?
because of two things..
1. it's challenging and kinda hard o understand so you need your
2. professor to explain it to you and roll his cute eyes in front of the class.

i dont know if i will hate or love my classmates when they tease me everytime i recite in front of the class. XD
i like pharmacology.
alot :D

two weeks of Vacation..
two weeks of nothing.

except of course if I will choose to read and study in advance for Pharmacology and for our Festival of Quizzes in Pharmacognosy
and if i will choose that choice, umm, Christmas Day will be like Byernes Santo!
:D

hello again because of him

2009-12-13T01:44:00.000+08:00

almost six weeks ago i told myself that I will try to be a good lady
..starting immediately this semester
..and that crazy semestral break would be my last farewell to
bad habits.

i tried..

for five weeks since classes resumed, i really struggled to shun those bad habits which apparently are also drug inducers
[which may cause Adverse Drug Reactions and Hepatotoxicity ]
(sabi sa pharmacology)

i did my best to avoid Sammy and Allan
(another word in place of the real term para di masyadong vulgar XD).
~but i guess my best wasn't good enough!~
(haha)

Allan is very difficult to stay away from because of my peers.
And besides, Allan is our/my only stress reliever when the going gets tough and the nights become restless.

While choosing Sally's glee is really up to me to decide.
i only have few friends who are addicted to Sally
so i can manage to ignore them whenever i want to
and ignore Sally altogether.
i have not tried Sally, as far as i can remember since the classes began

but just an hour ago,
i found out that my most favorite Man of the semester
is also addicted to Sally! it shows by his manners.
grr. i did not expect to unravel that info,
it just came from nowhere,
sometime tonight when i accidentally clicked a link. XD

so now I am again kindled to come to Sally's comfort and enjoy its soothing delight

all of it because of my favorite Man of the semester

im so drawn to this period of my college life because of him.
well, everything happens for a reason. we wake up in the morning for a reason, we meet new people every day for a reason. we bump to a stranger some time for a reason.
I met my favorite Man of the semester for a reason and im sticking to one man only, to him only.

*he's nothing special. he's just my favorite Man of the semester.
and i study alot in a subject because of him. haha XD

memories

2009-12-06T14:45:00.000+08:00

Number 1.

He went up riding in a silver vehicle with tinted window; two cars were following him in a manner which appeared to intimidate other cars. Nobody seemed to know his new Toyota Innova. It was the first time he did not walk for seven kilometers. A lot have obviously changed.

Her white shirt was wet of perspiration because of her hike through a steep road up to a hallowed mountain, her legs and feet was almost numb, her hair was so wet that sweat flows through her head, she was really thirsty and exhausted so she tried to rest a bit.

She was standing in front of a glass see though door which seemed to be newly cleansed with a poster which says “Restricted Area. Do not enter” on the upper left side of the metal handle when she saw him, the man who told her how to be loved, the way how God loves his child, and how to love in return, the way how people should love God back. Right then and there her heart thawed. She missed him very much.

He was talking to an old woman who was frantically laughing beside him. She taught that the old woman was laughing because of something he said and she also though that the old woman was laughing to impress him and let him know that he was a really funny man of God. She saw him looked at her and smiles, so she smiled back and waved hello, he laughed hesitantly, maybe because the old woman was still laughing while talking beside her. He then faced the old woman and talked a little bit more, she was still staring at him. She missed him very much.

He walked out of the “Restricted area” and looked at her friend and her, like telling them “Come here and talk to me”, so she and her friend walked to the glass door but halfway through, people started taking his hand and his blessings, she and her friend stopped, they waited until he was alone in front of the glass door. Finally, they came close to each other again, her favorite person in Pangasinan. She eyed him through it all. She missed him very much.

He started talking to her and her friend. He asked her why was she present at the mountain top, she smiled and said that she did not have classes, while on the back of her head she thought that even though she have classes, she would skip it just not to miss this moment. He grinned, chuckled in affirmation and said Oh yes, it’s a Saturday and you don’t have classes. She was speechless. Then her friend gave him a magazine with an article that her friend wrote for him. He smiled and laughed and her friend and he talked about it. Her eyes never left his face as they spoke. He might have melted if she has eyes which shoot like a laser gun. She missed him very much.

The memories of the past five years came rushing through her mind; halo-halo on a rainy afternoon, lunch at Greenwich, free Rosaries, Mt. Carmel, bracelets, shirts, one hundred pesos and a lot more valuable treasures which was buried deep in her heart. She missed him very much.

Yesterday's conversation was all it took for her to realize that he really is now far from home, Bataan. She wanted to hug him but she froze when he was right in front of her talking.
People started coming from different places as soon as they saw him. She and her friend were eaten by the crowd so they left instead. The last glance was all she had. She missed him very much.

She never saw him again that close after the Mass. He already perfected the act of hiding and leaving early.

Number 2.

While sitting sadly at a white plastic chair, somebody passed by glanced at her which she caught. It was A.
The memories of her and him came rushing but she composed herself.
She shouted stop at herself and strangled her sobbing heart.
She looked back and forgot about it.
She felt intense.

Pasek andPaul's Edges

2009-12-03T16:22:00.000+08:00

I was reading through Live Feeds in facebook when I saw a shared video entitled
"Boy With Dreams"

i was bored so i clicked the play button

and there was I, stuned by their music!
I loved it the first time I played it.

Boy With Dreams is one of the Song Cycles from the musical EDGES composed by Benj Pasek and Justin Paul. I searched their other videos in youtube and I love all of it!!!

Pasek and Paul are an American composer/lyricist living in New York City

my favorite song is entitled LYING THERE sang by Farah Alvin

their music is just awesome!

im so excited to fly to the US to watch the musical on stage!

and im more excited to finally receive a CD compilation of their Musical

www.pasekandpaul.com

12 Little Things Every Filipino Can Do to Help Our Country

2009-12-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

1. Follow traffic rules -- Why is that the most important? The answer is simple. Traffic rules are the simplest of our laws. If we learn to follow them, it will be the lowest form of national discipline that we can develop. Since it is totally without monetary cost, it should be easy for us to comply with, and therefore should provide a good start.

2. Whenever you buy or pay for anything, always ask for an official
receipt. - -- If a seller does not issue an official receipt when you
buy a product, the seller may or may not remit the tax to the government. Without an O.R., there is no record of the sale transaction, and the tax that you paid may not be remitted to the Bureau of Internal Revenue.

3. Do not buy smuggled goods. Buy local, buy Filipino. --- It may not be good economics to buy 100 percent local products. What I suggest is for us to take a "50-50" buying attitude. This means that we must develop the attitude of using 50 percent of our budget for local products and the other 50 percent for imported choices.

4. When you talk to others, especially foreigners, speak positively of our race and our country - -- this is best addressed to the rich and the middle class in our country, who have contact with the outside world. It is they who talk to, dine or deal with foreigners either here or abroad. It is what they say and do which creates impressions about us among foreigners.

5. Respect your traffic officer, policeman, soldier and other public
servants --- There is nothing like the power of respect. It makes a
person proud. It makes one feel honorable. At the same time, courtesy to others is good manners. It is class and elegance and kindness. It is seeing the value and dignity in the other man. It is, in fact, a mark of a most profound education.

6. Do not litter. Dispose your garbage properly. Segregate. Recycle.
Conserve. - -- As Louis Armstrong says in his song: "I see trees of
green, red roses, too, I see them bloom for me and you and I think to myself, what a wonderful world."

7. Support your church. - (or charitable/ civic organizations -- :-)

8. During elections, do your solemn duty. - -- Honesty, more than a
masteral or doctorate degree, is what gives credibility. And credibility is essential because it is a leader's link to the people. It is what makes the people look to one direction, follow a common vision, and perform a uniform act. In short, credibility is what makes people follow the leader.

9. Pay your employees well. --- No exercise is better for the human
heart than to reach down and lift someone else up. This truly defines a successful life. For success is the sum, not of our earthly possessions, but of how many times we have shown love and kindness to others.

10. Pay your taxes. --- In 2003, P83 billion was collected from
individual income taxes. But 91 percent of this amount came from salaried workers from the government and private sector, people who had no choice since their income taxes were withheld mandatorily. Only P7 billion of the P83 billion came from businessmen and professionals like doctors, lawyers, accountants and architects, among others.

11. Adopt a scholar or adopt a poor child. --- You can make a difference in the future of our country by making a difference in the world of children.

12. Be a good parent. Teach your kids to follow the law and to love
our country. --- Today's children will someday rule and lead this world. But whether they will be bad rulers or good leaders will depend largely on how we raise them today. Our future is in the hearts and minds of our children.

by.
Alexander Lacson

Bataan’s Pilgrimage, Year Six

2009-11-30T08:02:00.000+08:00

I never wanted to walk seven kilometers going up the summit of a hallowed mountain but I had no choice because the one man I thought would ride me up to the top of Mt. Samat did not come, all of “them” never came, which really disappointed me and my expectations for a former O.I.C.

We started the seven kilometer march at around 1:15 in the afternoon; no clouds were present in the vast blue sky so it was really hot. We were fighting with thirst, burning sunlight, sticky feeling because of sweat, restlessness, exhaustion and weakened body just to reach the mountain’s peak where God was waiting for all of us.

I was with Fergie, Ervin, Madame and her cute little angel Chacha, they were all part of a collegiate school paper, while I am a mere pilgrim who loves God, our peninsula, my bishop and taking pictures. (haha)

When we arrived at the open field packed with people from different walks of life; rich, middle class, poor, high ranking government officials, nuns, priests, seminarians, brothers, religious youths and youth leaders, cops, militaries, nurses, senior citizens, parishioners and other people, I realized all of us have the same expectation, to be one with God at a holy mountain for the sixth time during the eve of Advent and quench our weary and sinful body with the word of the Lord and the breeze of fresh cool air from heaven.

A lot of priests were not there, as in physically absent, I don’t know about those who were physically present but mentally absent. Bataan priests are different, they have minds of their own and they are very courageous and brave. They are absurd, in a cool and nice way though.

After the Mass, of course there was the traditional fireworks display for about ten minuets and then the party. Yesterday’s awesome song was that about the YAsia Fiesta.

Then the dreading walk down started. Again, we never wanted to walk another seven kilometers but we do not have any choice. I am very tired, my body is surrendering and my feet and legs are almost numb. It was not only us that felt that way, there’s still the other about ten thousand people. The good thing was that a Police patrol stopped by us as Madame waived her weak arm and let us ride with them until we reach the foot. Chacha was very tired, she was an eight year old girl who was then walking up and down, ten kilometers of a steep mountain. For the first time I was glad we have police officers and patrol cars.

During our ride down, a lot of young guys and gals were shouting at the police driver of our police patrol to stop the car because their gal friend fainted. She was not moving, maybe this was because of hunger and exhaustion and it was a very scary scenario. When she was carried inside the front part of the patrol, it was only then that I saw another guy who also fainted. Now we have two unconscious youths in a vehicle with us.

The annual Mt. Samat Pilgrimage of the Diocese of Balanga is always amazing; I could still vividly remember the fourth trek which was sandwiched between the days of Typhoon Milenyo. All we needed to do was to pray and pray that the weather be fine that day, and it happened: clear blue sky all throughout the day. Yesterday, the one thing that amazed me was the eagle soaring high up the clear blue sky right above the crowded Dambana ng Kagitingan, like he was guarding the sky to be free from rain.

.Next year is going to be different, nobody knows if next year will still happen, yet everybody wants it to happen.

mahalin natin sila

2009-10-31T17:57:00.001+08:00

Igalang ang pari.
Iwasto at ipanalangin ang paring may pagkakamali.
Ikuwento ninyo si Father kay Jesus.
Huwag ninyong pagkuwentuhan sa inyong umpukan ang inyong pari.

goodbye Pong!

2009-10-22T20:26:00.000+08:00

Pong lived a fruitful and awesome life inside his shell.

Through his little ways, he touched our lives and became part of it by:

• Laughing with us because of wowowee contestants
• Cheering with us for our favorite basketball team in bTV
• Hanging out with us as we drink and smoke altogether
• Watching a movie and or TV series with us
• Getting angry with Butch and Borgy being so noisy and makulit
• And many other things we do in our living room

Pong is very shy. So shy he does not even speak any word nor present any sound, he is just right there, in his little home, keeping company (always) and spending all his time with us.

Who is Pong?

Pong is that cute little hermit crab which my kuya caught wandering around our kitchen floor.

He picked him up and gave him a world of his own where he can do anything he wants and sleep all the time he wanted.

My kuya even bought him a pasalubong from Sweden, a Swiss flag which gives his cute little home an amazing looking aura.

But I never knew why his name was Pong.

As part of living, our body grows, so as hermit crabs, and when they grow, in the natural scheme of things, they move from one shell to another. Pong can’t do that because we cannot seem to find a bigger shell for him.

Is has been two days since Pong felt ill and we can do nothing but sprinkle him a little water and give him food we think he wanted.

Just this afternoon, as I walked pass by his little home inside his own little world at the top of
Butch’s cage, I sprinkled a few water for him, but he did not move.

Pong is dead.

I hate seeing living things die especially those that I love.

Pong is the best hermit crab which ever lived!

Now, we are left with only three little cute pets.
Gerlie, the female flower horn with a huge forehead.
Butchoy, the skinny brown little Chihuahua who likes to lick sleeping people’s faces.
Borgy, the humungous little pug which gets tired for only about two minutes of running.

my Philosophy Professor's last paper work: discussHAPPINESS

2009-10-17T13:30:00.000+08:00

It’s hard to define happiness when you aren’t happy at all.

I’ve been trying so hard to get some inspiration for this final paper in philosophy but I just can’t. I went partying at a disco house last Monday night just to be happy but still I am not.

I could vividly remember those days when people would describe me like this, “Ah si Eda, yung taga Hermosa na palaging nakangiti!” Those were some four years ago and I am missing the experience of a worry-free and sad-free loud laugh. I was still in high school then, a lot have changed for the past four years, now my friends (in college) would say I am an “Emo” girl. Well, they don’t know me and they don’t even care.

Now let me try to discuss what happiness is for me since I don't have a choice but to write something.

Happiness is when you wake up in the morning knowing that there is a prepared breakfast at your dining table, hot and ready for you to munch it all up. It is when you see a lot of unread messages at your cell phone telling you good night and good morning at the same time because you fell asleep talking to them all. It is when you see your ironed uniform hanging tightly at your cabinet ready for you to stain it with a lot of knowledge at school. It is when, before you stand up from bed, your mom greets you with a good morning kiss and hug. Happiness in the morning is when you wake up alive and ready to go for another day in your life, with everything set up for you by your mom, and your friends are waiting for you at school. Happiness in the morning is when you smile back at the bright sunlight whom is looking at you from his vast skyline. Happiness is when forget about our sad and nasty yesterday and move on and create a new beautiful day.

Happiness is when you go to school prepared for your quizzes or long exams or reports even though your eye bags are already hanging loosely from your bulging eyes because you have not had enough sleep from last night. It is when your friends, seatmates and / or random classmate greet you a warm good morning hug, or a chilling “good morning! Pakopya!” and you answer back “Good morning too! Wala pa din akong assignment, kokopya pa lang!” Happiness is when you see your crush staring at you and you crazily talk to your friends just to ignore him then after he pass by, you go oh so kilig. Happiness is when there are a lot of vacant places at your favorite or chosen restaurant or fast food chain for you to stuff you stomach full of foods and again sin, gluttony. Happiness is when you get to seat at the middle of the classroom, unseen and unsuspected of sleeping during discussion time. Happiness is when your project proposals get to be approved by your boss. It is also when there is not a single traffic on your way to and from school. Happiness is when you end your ordinary school day without any laboratory apparatus broken, without your ID being taken away from you by the guard or by the SWDB coordinator or without you failing any of your subjects. Happiness is obtained by breaking the rules sometimes and one day, you’ll realize that the day you became happy and laughed your stomach out was the day you became stupid.

Happiness is when your lover pulls up at your favorite coffee shop and surprises you with a white rose beside a cold cappuccino with a murmur of “I Love You hon.” It is when you get the chance to be together and wait for the sun to set at a beach or a mountain full of memories, just there, sitting beside each other, speechless of the beauty of Mother Earth and the romantic ambiance. It is when he picks you up at the bar when you are already drunk and helpless with your friends and is patiently talking to you until you reach home. Happiness is when you have this special person who cares about you so much, no matter what, in sickness and in health, in ugliness or in beautiful days, who accepts you just the way you are. Happiness is when you have someone to share it to.

Happiness is when you go home and enter your living room laughing because you hear people at your house telling corny jokes or banat lines with each other over and over again. It is when you get to sit in the couch, rest and hear you family members teasing each other. Happiness is when you see your refrigerator full of foods and soft drinks for you to sin again, gluttony. Happiness is when you get to spend the rest of your day with the people you love, family and friends, just being there, keeping company waiting anyone to think about gimmick time when the darkness comes.

Happiness is when you sleep at night, drunk or not, peacefully and is expecting the next day to be the same happy day again, and the next day too and the other day also and all the rest of your days. It is when you get to talk or text with your friends random crazy things until you fall asleep. It is when you are finally done with your report and you also already have memorized everything for the quiz the next day and are ready to shut your computer down and say good night to your facebook friends. Happiness is when finally sandman eats you up for you to rest and be charged and ready for another day to come. Happiness is when you are done chatting for the last time of the day to God and He says to you, “Good night my child.”

In a broader point of view, happiness is when you are emotionally, financially and spiritually stable and basically you are just waiting for your time of death to come. It is when you have your cute children, a handsome husband or a stunning wife, a huge house at a beautiful village, a car or two, a house maid and a regular job, ready anytime for a promotion at an international company. On the other hand, happiness can also be experienced in your simple home, sharing a diner and a TV station altogether with your husband or wife and your gang of children. Or happiness is when you finally have decided to give yourself fully to God and be a priest or a nun, serve His people in need. Happiness is being contented in what you have, even if it may not be the coolest car or the biggest house as long as you are with the people you want to be happy with, as long as your house is called a home.

Maybe happiness is these little things that make us want to live more, to be here on earth longer. But happiness is one thing which cannot be experienced alone. It needs to be shared. You can’t laugh alone in a place full of people, they will think you are crazy; neither can you be amazed at how wonderful everything is; people will think you are delusional nor can you be happy about the things you achieve, people might think you are one damn stubborn person.

Me? I’m not yet happy. College life is miserable for me. A lot of problems arise, they come and go while some never leave me alone and they make me sad.
I guess, I can only be fully happy when I already have surrendered my all to God Himself and the only reason I am living is to fulfill that dream. But it’s still a long road ahead and the path is crooked and rough. Change is a constant in our lifetime.

But one thing’s for sure, true happiness can never be bought or sold nor can it be replaced by any material thing here on earth and only with God can we experience it.

P.S. I’d be really happy if my professor would ace me in my philosophy class.
..diba sir ray ann? :D

Salamat po sa limang taon ng alaala

2009-10-07T18:40:00.000+08:00

May 3, 2004

installation: bishop soc
from Manila (like flying to the moon) to Bataan.
Bishop Socrates Villegas
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..tapos madami nang sumunod na nangyari
mt. samat trek
birthday celebration ni mama Mary tuwing September 8
every second saturday formation
youth camp
Christmas Day
pastoral visit sa mga parish
Unang Sinodo ng Balanga
clergy retreat
bagong mukha ng Katedral ni san Jose
BAYANI at BANAL
tau cross
HERO
halo-halo
www.balangadiocese.org website
text quotes
September 28
visit sa mga school
PALAD
NO TO BNPP
Ossuary
bp.Guevarra's wake
Lubid
at maraming maraming marami pang iba
para sa kabataan ng BATAAN

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September 8, 2009

.... nakakagulat ang balita

... magpapaalam na siya
.pwede bang Archdiocese of Balanga na lang?

sa November 2.. babay na talaga
sa november 4: Archbishop Socrates B.Villegas na
Archbishop of the Archdiocese of Lingayen

.. last Updating nila.

... kulang na sila kung may susunod pa.

nakakabingi ang "Archbishop Soc"
tuwing may bumabanggit
kahit na Father Soc pa rin daw..

maraming lumuha.lumuluha.luluha
ang bilis ng panahon

but PART OF LOVING IS LETTING GO.
we should let go. move on.
let him go. let him grow

sulat pa

2009-10-03T00:13:00.000+08:00

alam nyo ba kung bakit may ganito?

bored na ang nakaupo!

nagkaklase sa Main Building at FLR, normal na scenario lang yan.
actually, sige, aamin na ako.. minsan ako rin nagsusulat sa desk. o kaya sa libro. minsan kahit sa kamay ko.

heto yung ilan sa dilemma
(based on experience at interview pero yung iba inimbento ko lang)

1. hindi nagkakaroon ng interes ang nakaupong estudyante kasi tinatamad kaya naghahanap na lang ng libangan.

2. hindi nya mainitndihan ang mga sinasabi ng professor.
as in no clue! para bang alien, na hindi alam ang language ng nagsasalita. o kaya naman para bang nanonood ng isang koreanovela na walang subtitle o kayang walang nagdudub kaya naman gumagawa siya ng sariling character na pwedeng kausapin.

3. ang boring ng topic.. na gusto na lang umalis at mag walk out ng estudyante, o ng buong klase kaso hindi nila magawa kasi may respeto pa naman, or sige, minsan dahil lang talaga sa attendance.
kadalasan nakakatulog na yung mga nasa likuran at naiinggit na yung mga nasa harapan.. kaya hahanap siya ng kakampi at mahahanap an desk.

4. parang hinugot mula sa kailalim-ilaliman ng mundo yung boses ng professor. tapos minsan magdadahilan pa ng "Paki turn off naman yung exhaust fan kasi kinakain yung boses ko".. kaya makikipag

5. may quiz / long exam pa sa next class kaya nag ccram na. kinakabahan kasi hindi pa nag-aaral. naghahanap na ng outlet ng stress. nagsusulat. minsan kinakagat na ang lapit o bolpen o pati kuko.

6. may recitation, kunwari busy. Walang notebook na mahablot kaya sa desk na lang kunwari nagsusulat.

7. may naunang sumulat, nag reply lang yung sumunod na umupo.. tapos nag repply din yung sumunod.. at yung sumunod pa.. tapos yung sunod ulit.. hanggang sa napuno na yung buong desk.

kaya lang, hetodi ko ma explain kung bakit nila ginagawa o bakit sila nagsusulat.

marami nyan sa ground floor..
pero meron din sa 4th floor..
kaso nakakatawa sa 4th floor kasi nagkukwentuhan pa sila.
nakakalibang tuloy kpag gumagamit kami ng CR.
meron pa nga doong mga advice na ibinibigay.
sagutan.
:D

.
stressed lang yan.
o kaya
bored lang yan.
o kaya
problemado talaga sa buhay nya :D

fyi: 2 faculties and 1 college yung gumagamit ng mga classroom sa ground floor.
wala pa jan yung mga out sider na maepal
so, we never know.
:D

did i tell you?

2009-10-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

Yes, it is still right there..

Waiting for me to come and get it
And once again tell the world about its mysteries ..
.. about its wondrous memories.
... its bizarre story.

Even if yours is somewhere deep
Nowhere to be found
Never to be seen.

Yes, I still keep its promises
Even if many times you do not believe

I am still me after all.

Galit ako sayo Ondoy!

2009-09-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

Ang pangit ng pangalan mo, ang baho pa pakinggan at ang sama pa ng idinulot mo saming lahat!

Bakit ba kasi hindi ka na lang matunaw sa kahihiyan bago ka pa pumasok sa teritoryo namin. Alam mo naman yatang makakapatay ka ng higit sa isang daan. Dahil sayo wala nang bahay yung iba naming kapatid, dahil sayo nagugutom na yung maraming kaibigan namin doon sa Maynila, Bulacan at Pampanga at dahil sayo nawalan sila ng tatay, nanay, ate, kuya at baby, dahil sayo hindi na tuloy buo yung pamilya.

Home wrecker ka pala eh! Daig mo pa ang kerida.

Alam mo bang inubos din ng baha mo yung lahat ng kagamitan sa bahay, mga damit, alahas at yung kotseng pinagipunan nila ng matagal.

Mapapalitan mo ba yon?
Eh No Permanent Address (NPA) ka naman.

Ayos lang naming dumaan ka eh, bakit kailangang saamin mo pa ibuhos ang sama ng loob mo pwede namang sa Pacific Ocean na lang o kaya sa South China Sea. Alam mo namang mahirap lang kami.

Hindi kami handa, ambilis mong mameswisyo.

Bukod sa inubos na yata ng kung sinong may posisyon sa gobyerno yung pambili ng pangresbak sayo, eh hindi naman kasi kongkreto lahat ng bahay naming magkakapatid na Pilipino.

Nakita mo ba yung litrato nang inaagos na nawasak na bahay tapos may mga taong nakatayo sa ibabaw? Alam mo bang may bata doon na nakaupo lang sa planggana at ngayon hindi na siya mahanap pati rin nanay niya.

Wala rin tuloy kaming pasok sa eskwela kasi pati yung mga classrooms namin eh pinasok ng baha dahil sa dami ng ulan mo. Gusto naming matuto noh, baka ikaw ang ayaw! Wag mo na kaming idamay.

Oo nga, nakaalis ka na (buti naman umalis ka na!) puro putik naman iniwan mo. Ayaw mo talagang makalimutan ka namin. Gusto mo pa yung malagay ka sa history, maepal ka masyado.

Tapos iyon, bawal bawalan mo na yung dalawa mo pang kadugong bagyo na papasok ulit sa Pilipinas, Sabihin mo naman, okay lang naman na bagyuhin kami pero wag naman yung pagkalipas lang ng isang gabi ubos na lahat ng meron samin.

Hayan, dahil sa napakasama mong dinulot, nakikita tuloy ng buong mundo ang isa sa pinakamagandang ugali at kultura ng mga Pilipino: ang bayanihan.

Beeelat! Mag tutulungan kami at malalampasan ka namin. Isa ka lang naman sa mga nakalinyang pagsubok jan. Kayang kaya namin to nang nagkakaisa.

Isa pa, hindi ka na mauulit pa kasi matututo na kami.

Magtatanim na kami ng mga puno sa paligid at iiwasan na naming ang magtapon ng basura sa mga ilog at kanal.

Mejo nakalimutan lang kasi naming yon.

Special mention kay Inang Kalikasan, pasesnsya ka na po sa tigas ng ulo namin ha. Di na po mauulit, sana di na maulit. Mahal ka naman namin eh. Promise!

At huli, para sayo Ondoy, tama na ngang kami na lang, matunaw ka na sa kahihiyan! Wag ka nang manalanta sa iba pang bansa. Tantanan mo na ang Vietnam.

bisyo

2009-09-25T22:12:00.000+08:00

si eda

si kuya jay

si fergy

Tangway. Capitol Drive. Balanga CIty

isa lang naman ang bisyo naming tatlo: magpasaya ng mga taong nalulungkot. kumbaga entertainer sa isang kabaret.
"lumapit ka't ika'y liligaya."

healthy pa naman ang liver and lungs namin.heart lang ang hindi.
:))

**sabi ni fergy sa blog nya sa magpasawalanghanggan
heto daw ang mga unfogetable quotes:
(pakopya na lang ako. blurr kasi talaga alaala ko. hahaha)

-Sumali ba kayo sa youth camp? Wala kayong kwenta!
-Rev, I need milk!
-Hey, drive slower!
-Matagal ko nang nasolo si Jay...
-Para sa Arsobispo!
-Di naman pwede si ____ o si ____, may problema yon..

diredirecho lang ang mga dila, walang tigil ang buka ng bibig at umaagos ang mga salitang sinasabi. nakakabingi lang ang ilan.. misan ayaw ko na lang marinig sa mga pinagkukwentuhan, nakakadurog ng puso T.T

**si kuya jay naman, masyadong nakakalungkot ang mga iniisip. wala nang ibang ginawa kuni ibaling ang lahat ng sama ng loob sa _ _ _ _.
:D
*at ako?
wala na akong maalala kinabukasan kundi ang sapilitan pagmamatinong lumakad papasok ng Giants para magmukhang okey pa!
sabi ko sa sarili ko: Kaya mo yan eda. may rev sa loob. may matatanda din. kaya mo yan! XD

pasensya na..
natutuwa lang akong i-blog ito..
masayang alaala nanaman kasi ang nahabi..

sana may uulitin pa!
isa pang round.
Para sa arsobispo!

hahahahahahahahaha
biro lang!

*sorry po arsbp!
XD

*sana di nya mabasa. sana di tayo mahuli lahat. hahaha
*special mention pala kay frM na naghatid pauwi. sorry talaga!

Masasagot rin ang iyong mga katanungan. Mawawala rin ang iyong pag-aalinlangan.

2009-09-20T11:44:00.000+08:00

Ang mabilis na paglipas ng panahon, sinasasbay nito ang mabilis na pagbabago na pumupunit sa aking kalooban, at sa aking sariling pakiwari ay naibulong ko na lamang: Ano ang tunay kong misyon sa buhay? Ano ang dapat kong gawin?

Kailangan kong malaman ang kasagutan sa aking mga tanong ngunit hindi ko alam kung papaano. Nais kong malaman ang paraan para masumpungan ang aking pagtatanong.. Ayaw ko sanang lagi na lamang ganito, ayaw kong nagdadalawang-isip sa bawat hakbang na aking iyayapak. At sa paggising ko sa umaga, ibig kong imulat ang aking mga mata sa mundong puno ng pag-ibig at kapayapaan. At sa pagbangon ko, aking tutulutan ang aking kapwa sa kapighatian. Ang pag-ibig ay aking makakamit. Ang lahat ng bagay na naisin ng aking buhay ay mananatili sa isang sulok ng aking puso. Lalakbayin ko ang lahat ng dagat upang makamit ang aking bawat pangarap.

Ang buhay ay maikli lamang…Ako’y magpapatuloy sa paglalakbay ng malinis ang puso. Ngunit akin pa ring pagnanasa na masagot ang aking mga katanungan. Hanggang sa huling sandali ng aking buhay ay akin pa ring ibubulong sa sarili: Nagawa mo ba ang misyon mo sa mundo? Sa patuloy na pag-ikot ng mundo, sa patuloy na paglalakbay mo, masasagot rin ang iyong mga katanungan. Mawawala rin ang iyong pag-aalinlangan.

Pasensya na

2009-09-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

Heto yung una kong totoong sulat dito na ngayon ko lang inisip.

Lahat ng nasa baba, kinopya ko lang yan sa ibang blog site ko.. pero syempre ako pa rin sumulat..
yung mga unang pahina, mga bago yan, syempre.. siguro nabasa mo na sila sa mutiply ko..

pero yung mga last pages, sila yung mga luma, mga alaala, magaganda at pangit na sinulat ko na rin dati para mabawasan ang laman ng puso ko..

mula ngayon, heto na ang magiging bagong tahanan ko..

di ko na gagamiting yung blog ng muliply at friendster ko, pati na rin yung note ng facebook ko..

napapadalas kasi ako ngayong magsulat, habang nagsasalita sa harapan yung professor namin sa Pharmacokinetics and Biopharmaceutics..

pasensya na ulit..

last two weeks!

2009-09-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

about two weeks ago, i was dying for the final exams to end..

i was always daydreaming in the middle of a pharmaceutical dosage form [major subject] lecture. i was dreaming that one day, all of this will take a break and let us breathe some fresh, quizz-free, assignment-free, project-free and report-free air.

Studying is not at all easy! not at all. how dare you not study late at night when you have a 20pt exam tomorrow, which i have done twice because i was reading Eclipse, and then i ended up having a grade of 8 out of 20. i totally freaked out because i really wanted good grades in that subject, well it was Anatomy and it is my favorite.but all was okay, i had my grade to not cross my 1.75 boarder. XD

so i totally wanted the semester to end because i was sooo tired of all the sacrifices, burdens, pains and ugliness i needed to endure all semester long because of my professors! i wanted to evey studying-pain to end:

end of burden- no more badtrip professors

end of suffering- no more "go-straight-home-because-you're-very-very-tired" moments

end of pain- no more hungry stomach

end of ugliness- less eyebags, oily faces from laboratory works and wasted looks after a twelve-hour study

and now, LAST TWO weeks.

i imagine it like it is being announced in a basketball game: the "Last Two Minuets" shout from the commentator.

i dont want the sem.break to end yet.

S- sleepfull nights
E- exam-free days
M- morning smiles
B- batugan mode
R- restfull afternoons
E- endless gimicks
A- a blazing "energy flame"
K- KAHIRAPAN!!!

hahaha..

too bad the school is our default life by now.

but too good we are going to have a better future.

;)

eda -october 20, 2008

Isang milyong pirma para sa kaluluwa ni Eda!

2009-09-20T00:20:00.002+08:00

Tatlong taon na ang nakalilipas nang sinabi sa amin na hindi na kami pwedeng umakyat sa altar tuwing may Misa at magserve bilang babaeng sakristan. Si Father Soc daw nagutos. Obedience. We need to follow. We have no choice.

Mula noon, unti-unti nang nawalan ako ng koneksyon kay God. Noong una, okay pa kasi nakakapunta-punta pa ako sa kumbento, nakakapagluto pa ako ng tortang talong, nakakapagpalipas pa ako ng dapit-hapon sa simbahan, nahihintay ko pang abutin ako ng dilim sa simbahan.. Noong una, kumpleto pa rin, wala lang ang pag-akyat namin sa altar, pero nakakapagserve pa din ako sa ibang bagay pero habang lumilipas ang panahon, nawawala ang mga taong dati kong nakakasalamuha. Nagseminaryo. Nagkolehiyo. Nagresign sa pagkasecretary ni Monsi, nagassign sa ibang parokya hanggang sa dumating ang araw, makalipas ang higit sa dalawa’t kalahating taon, naging kawayan at simpleng ngitian na lang ang pagbati namin sa bawat isa, na para bang wala kaming napagdaanan noon sa nakalipas, na para bang wala kaming pinagsamahang masasaya at mapapait na pangyayari sa Garden of Eden ng aming parokya. Naalala nyo pa ba ang kdoalympics na champion tayo pero ni piso wala tayong natanggap na tulong mula sa parokya, ang pait ng karanasan pero dahil sama sama tayo, naging matamis na tagumpay. Naalala nyo pa ba ang hulin nating dalaw kay Fr.Boy noong buhay pa siya, celebration nya noon ng birthday nya? Naalala nyo pa ba kung paano umiyak si Paulding mula Orion hanggang Balanga cementery? Nakakaalalala pa ba kayo?

Madami nga naman ang binabago ng panahon. Kapag hindi ka magiingat, pati ikaw mismo babaguhin nito.

Nagsimula ang kwento namin grade five pa lang ako, lumago at namulaklak noong second year high school ako at pinagbawalan na kaming magserve noong fourth year high school at ngayon, third year college student na ako pero yun pa rin ang hinahanap-hanap ko.

Sa parokya natin, sa ministry natin, dahil sa gabay ninyo, ng kura at ng Obispo natin, nahulog ang loob ko sa Diyos. Dahil sa lahat ng mga pinagdaanan nating masasaya at malulungkot na pangyayari, dahil sa mga opurtunidad na binigay ninyo sa akin, dahil sa mga taong pinakilala ninyo sa akin, dahil sa lahat ng mga aral na itinuro ninyo sa akin, natuto akong mahalin ang Diyos ng buong buhay ko. Oo, ang pangarap ko noon kuya Bob, yun pa din po ang pangarap ko ngayon.. pero sana maingatan ko pa siya nang matagal pa..

Ang paglilingkod sa inyo at kay God, yun sana ang buhay ko kaso nawala nang lahat.

Mula sa halos araw-araw na pagsisimba at pagdarasal ng Rosaryo hanggang sa hindi ko na alam kung kalian ang huli kong simba at dasal. Pati nga yata noong birthday ko, hindi ako nakapagsimba eh.
Ang aga kasi ng Misa ng mga Dominikano sa Chapel.haha XD

Ganito na ako ngayon, madami na din halos nagbago gaya nyo, wala na kasi saaking gumagabay. Paty dito, gimmick doon. Kahit ano na lang pinapasok ko. Oo, aaminin ko, kulang nakulang ang pinasok kong pinkabagong organization, first love at hinahanap-hanap kasi ng puso ko ang paglilingkod sa parokya. Wala naman kasing pangkabataan na samahan sa parokya namin, Monsi, pakinggan mo po ako, wag magbingi-bingihan sa tawag ng panahon.

Ikaw, matutulungan mo ba ako?

Isang milyong pirma para sa kaluluwa ni Eda! Haha

Isang milyong pirma din para pakinggan ako ng kura ko! Hahahaha

Daan daang bilyong pirma para dito na lang ulit sa Bataan si frSoc! Hahaha

O kaya naman, ampunin nyo na lang ako sa parokya nyo, pramis papasalubungan ko kayo palagi ng kendi. Haha :D

Halo-halong kwento sa Katedral ng Balanga. 09-09-09. alas dose ng tanghali

2009-09-20T00:20:00.001+08:00

Kanina, pagdating ko sa Katedral nakita ko si Kuya Jay kaya sumama muna ako sakanya at dahil don, nakita ko sina Kris Aquino, James Yap at Baby James na palabas sa likuran ng Max’s papunta nang Katedral. Nagulat ako kasi biglag paglingon ko sila pala yon. Haha. Ang daming kabataan, mga highschool students, hindi magkamayaw. Sa Mayor pa lang ng Balanga, solve na sila at ang lakas tumili at nagpapapicture pa, lalo naman nang lumabas na sina Kris Aquino, nabingi yata ako.

Sinusundan ng mga tao sina Kris, artista nga naman. Kung nasaan sila, nandoon ang malaking kumpol ng tao kaya naman parang isang malaking heater yung loob ng Katedral kanina, hanggang sa labasan sa may pintuan sumisingaw ang mainit na hangin. Buti na lang pala hindi umulan ng malakas kundi mababasa kami ng mga taong nasa labas na lang nagsimba dahil hindi na kasya sa loob ng simbahan. Kulang na kulang yung laki ng Katedral para sa Misa kanina, ang dami talagang tao, lalo pa’t sinuspinde ang pasok sa highschool sa TDel at BNHS para makapagsimba sila.

Paliko na kami papuntang gilid ng Katedral nang makasalubong namin si Father Soc, nagsimula nang pumila ang mga nagmamano sakanya.. hanggang sa maubos na.. ako na lang hindi nagmamano sa aming lahat hanggang sa lumagpas na sya ng dalawang hakbang:

Kuya Jay: Oh bakit ka hindi nag mano
Eda: Ayaw ko, masakit kuya Jay eh. Aalis na siya.

Nagsisimula na yung Misa pero ang dami pa ring labas pasok sa gilid na pintuan ng harapan ng Katedral, hindi mapalagay kung saan pupwesto habang Misa. Yung mga madre nagpumilit pang pumasok pero makalipas ang ilang minuto, may mga lumalabas din. Yung ibang mga layko nagpupumilit ring pumasok, hindi ko alam kung magsisimba talaga o gusto lang makita si Kris Aquino at si “Papa” James. Sabi pa ng nasa harapan ko, “Aba, hindi ako papayag na hindi makita si Kris at Papa James”. At lahat silang pumasok sa loob ng Katedral, paglabas ay iisa ang itsura, kasama na rin ang pamilya Aquino, basing basa sa pawis na parang may libreng shower o umuulan din sa loob ng Katedral ni San Jose.

Ikalawang beses ko pa lang ito naranasan na magsimba sa labas ng Katedral: una noong installation ni bishop Soc, July 3, 2004. Kasi naman, kahit na late akong dumating sa bawat diocesan mass, humahanap pa rin ako ng paraan na makapasok at makaupo pa.

Pagkatapos ng Misa, paglabas ni Kris sa may pintuan na kinatatayuan ko, bigla namang dami ng tao doon so tinabihan ko na lang yung mga madre sa pintuan ng ossuary at pinanood silang pagkaguluhan ang Box Office Queen at RP Team Captain na magpuntang kumbento at doon naman dumami ang tao sa carpark ng kumbento.

Narinig ko nanaman ang umiiyak na boses ni Kris Aquino, “Sorry Archbishop Soc, but I can’t let go of Mom.” Sabi nya yon kasi sabi ni ARCHbishop Soc na we should let go of Tita Cory na daw kasi the essence of that forty days of mourning is learning to let go. Sorry Archbishop Soc, it is really hard to let go, it takes a lot of time, forty days is too short.

Narinig ko din ang humihikbing tinig ni Father Soc nangmabaling ang atensyon sa balita nang pagalis nya, “Hindi pa muna ako magpapaalam. Saka na lang, sa huling Misa ko na lang dito sa atin ko sasabihin ang aking damdamin, binigyan pa naman akong palugit na dalawang buwan. Magkikita-kita pa rin naman tayo.”…hik.. “binebendisyunan ko kayo sa ngalan ng Ama, Anak (..huhu) at …….ng………Espiritu…………………………
…………….. San….t….o……AMEN.”

Dalawang buwan na lang Bataan..

May mga taong pumunta lang yata sa Misa na yon para makita sina Kris at James at si Baby James na rin, pero meron din namang nakikidalamhati talaga sa pagpanaw ni Tita Cory.

Si Tita Cory, marami siyang itunuro sa atin. Isa sa paborito ko ang “Bayan muna bago ang sarili”. Selfless hindi ba. Ngayon kilala na natin si Tita Cory bilang Tita Cory, hindi bilang asawa ni Ninoy o bilang nanay ni Kris. Hindi ako nakiki-Tita Cory ako kasi uso, nakiki-Tita Cory ako kasi idol ko si Corazon-Cojuanco Aquino dahil sa kanyang selflessness, courage, integrity and love of nation.

Ang Misa kanina ni Father Soc, sa aking tingin, dalawa ang binalingan, ang para sa Ika ApatnaPung araw ng pagpanaw ni Tita Cory at para sa simula ng pagpapaalam kay Father Soc.

Father Soc. Msgr. Soc. Bishop Soc.

Ngayon

Archbishop Soc: the youngest archbishop.

Pagkatapos ng Misa, nakaupo ako sa Katedral, hindi ko naman talaga hinihintay si Lerie eh, Fergy, nakikipagkwentuhan ako kay San Jose, pero okay lang din na dumating ka..

Ang dami nanaman nating nagpagkwentuhan. Kakaiba. Ibang level. Pihado di nila kakayanin. Hahaha.

Actually, namiss ko yon, ang kalokohan pagkatapos ng misa ng Obispo. Nagkalat at umeepal sa kumbento, sa buhay ng mga pari. Haha :D

May nagpaparty talaga, at makikiparty na din ako sakanila kahit na hindi ko alam bakit sila nagcecelebrate..binalibali

ktad ko na rin lahat, tumungin na rin ako sa darkest side pero wala pa rin eh. Pero de bale na, makikiparty na din ako. Two years ago, bitter naman din ako eh.sasaluhan ko na sila. Haha

:D

Paano daw ba manligaw?

2009-09-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

Dear Mr. Bob Ong,

Matagal ko na pong nililigawan itong ramp model na stage actress na nakilala ko recently sa isang party. Nasisiraan na ako ng bait. Pag nakilala mo siya, tiyak matutunaw ang utak mo sa kakaisip sa kanya.

Hingi lang po ako ng advice. Paano ko po siya mapapaibig? Bibigyan ko ba siya ng tula ? Haharanahin ko ba siya? Roses? Kalachuchi? Chocnut at sampaguita?

In lab na po ako. Ano po ang gagawin ko? Is she the one.

Lubos na gumagalang,

- Bartolome -

- ANG REPLY -

Dear Bartolome,

Hindi ka talaga sasagutin niyang nililigawan mo. Napaka-old school kasi ng mga tactics mo. Wala nang gumagawa ng ganyan. Sa panahon ngayon, lahat ng bagay, nagtaas na. Nagtaas na ang gasolina, nagtaas na ang presyo ng bigas at mga bilihin, nagtaas na ang pamasahe, at lalong nagtaas na rin ng standards ang mga babae. Hindi na uubra yang siopao at kalachuci mo. Lalo na yung huli mong binigay, hopia at santan. Ano ba pare? Ano'ng era ka ba pinanganak?
Pero don't worry. It's not too late. May pag-asa ka pa. Hindi pa naman siya kinakasal at di pa niya sinasagot yung crush niya na basketball player. Kahit lamang siya ng sampung paligo sa'yo, daanin mo sa utak at creativity. Dahil aminin na natin, iyon na lang talaga ang pag-asa mo. Heto, bibigyan kita ng mga simple, tried and tested na mga regalo para di siya mapurga sa hopia at siomai. Sundin mo 'to, tiyak na lalaglag ang bagang niya sa'yo. Mga medyo more than your usual regalong panligaw:

1. Bili ka ng century tuna. Ilagay mo sa isang napakalaking box-yung sinlaki ng TV o kaya box ng desktop PC mo. Tapos balutan mo ng magarang pambalot. Kuntsabahin mo na yung teacher niya sa Calculus. Sa gitna ng klase, bigla kang kumatok sa classroom.. Pero dapat, incognito ka. Magsuot ka ng LBC jacket, magshades, at magsuot ng surgical mask. Pagpasok mo sa classroom, iabot mo yung box sa teacher, at papirmahin mo ng acknowledgement receipt. Tapos pabuksan mo in front of everyone. Tignan mong mabuti ang reaction sa mukha niya.

Later during the day, pag tinanong niya kung bakit Century Tuna ang binigay mo, iikot mo yung lata at ituro mo yung sign na "Omega 8." Pag tinanong niya kung ano yung Omega 8, sabihin mo: "because you're good for my heart."

2. Mangolekta ka ng isang dosenang hanger na libre mong nakukuha tuwing nagpapa-dry clean ka. Tapos, sa bawat hanger, isulat mo: "I miss hanging out with you."

3. Instead of roses, kuha ka ng tissue paper sa banyo ng school mo. Gawin mong tissue paper roses. Gawa ka ng isang dosena. Pag-abot mo, sabihin mo, "Ganito kalinis ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo."

4. Bili ka ng tetra pack ng mantikang Minola. Tapos bilugan mo yung "with Omega 8." Hindi na siya magtatanong kung bakit.

5. Bigyan mo ng ice cream cone. Dapat cone lang at walang ice cream. Pag hinanap niya yung ice cream, sabihin mo, "natunaw na kakatitig sa'yo."

6. Bili ka ng sandosenang box ng crayola. Kolektahin mo lahat ng black. Lagay mo sa isang box ng crayola. Sa likod, isulat mo: "Walang kulay ang buhay kung wala ka."

7. Bigyan mo siya ng mumurahing bumbilya. Alam mo na siguro by this time kung ano ang isasagot pag tinanong niya kung bakit. (para sa mga hindi maka-"gets", kapag tinanong ka, ang sagot mo ay, "sapagkat, ikaw lamang ang tanging ilaw at liwanag sa buhay ko", o kaya naman ay, "you light up my life".

8. I-text mo siya ng: "Hindi tayo tao, hindi tayo hayop, hindi tayo halaman. Bagay tayo. Bagay!"

9. Bigyan mo siya ng calling card ng MMDA. Sa likod, isulat mo "para pag nagkabanggaan ang puso natin."

10. Padalhan mo ng Happy Meal pero huwag mong ibibigay yung libreng laruan. Paghinanap niya, sabihin mo: "Ako yung freebie, at ikaw yung meal na nagpapahappy sa'kin."

11. Sunugin ang kanyang bahay at padalhan ng hallmark card: "aanhin mo pa ang bahay mo, kung matagal ka nang nakatira sa puso ko"

12. Pagatapos sunugin ang kanyang bahay, padalhan siya ng isang box ng posporo, Guitar brand. unahan ang kanyang galit at sabihin, "ayan ang posporo na ginamit ko sa pagsunog ng iyong bahay, match na tayo"

13. Sa kalagitnaan ng isang malupit na bagyo, pasalubungan sya ng "salbabida", wag payong, o mainit na mami. Pag nagtanong bakit? ang isagot mo ay " ayaw kong malunod ka sa pag mamahal ko."

14. Pag pumayag na siyang makipagdate, dalhin mo siya sa canteen at huwag bibitawan ang kamay. Pag tinanong niya kung bakit, ituro mo yun sign na "don't leave your valuables unattended"

paborito kong Questionnaire sa friendster

2009-09-20T00:15:00.000+08:00

1) Ano section mo nung 1st yr high ka?
– I - Love

2) Eh nung 2nd yr?
– II - Rose

3) 3rd yr?
– III - Sagittarius

4) 4th yr?
– IV - Diamond (gaganda ng names ng sections namin no?! hahaha! XD)

5) Anong best year for u?
– third year ! suupper! lahat na ng kalokohan, katangahan, kagagahan, kabulastugan, kalupetan, katripan, kakornihan, katatawanan, kadramahan ay nadiyan panay kaming nag-aaway ni papa kasi panay naman ang uwi ko ng gabi.

6) Marami ka bang friends nun
– Uo naman!.walang kwenta highschool life kung wala kang loko lokong barkada!

7) Saan kau kumakain kapag lunch?
– taga Hermosa kasi ako kaya umuuwi pa akong hermosa. kapag madami ginagawa o nag-away kami ni papa o may proj. kami sa Campus Ministry naghohotdog na lang ako sa canteen canteenan ng school namin minsan naman nagpapaadobo yung mama ni jersey kaya dun kami kumakain ni amiel. minsa naman kapag napapagkaisahan ng klase na wag nang pumasok sa hapon, nagluluto nal ang kami ng magic corned beef kina amiel (to the tune of Let the Love Begin) haha

8.) Saan tumatambay after skul?
– halos araw-araw kina amiel. nanonood kami ng VCD (di pa uso DVD non). nagrerent kami sa Video City. Pwede na nga akong maging stock holder dun eh. haha. sabihin mo lang name ko makakapagrent ka na, kahit wala yung card. XD (kaso nagsara na sila ngayon. huhuhu) ….tapos sabay kain ng Halo-Halo. nakakamiss yung mga panahong yon grabe!
kapag dumidilim na namomroblema na ako non kasi di pa tapos yung movie kailangan ko nang umuwi kasi magaaway nanaman kami ni papa XD

kapag hindi ordinaryong araw, naliligaw ako sa Katedral..

minsan sbi ko ki papa (ay mali, kadalasan pala XD): “Gagawa lang po kami ng proj. kaya gagabihin ako mamaya”… kapag ganon, automatic sa Katedral sa Balanga punta ko. pinakamalupet nung nagka NYCC(National Youth C…. Council ) sa balanga,kasama ko si fergy, sabi namin mag boboyhunting kami, tapos nauwi naman kay Bishop Baylon. amp! hahaha
loooove highschool days!

9) Lagi ka ba late pag morning?
– aba Oo! haha. “Taga Hermosa po kasi ako” ang panay kon gpalusot na lumulusot naman

noong minsan, [pero halos araw-araw talaga ako late XD, eto langyung isa sa di ko malilimutan] (Lunes ng Umaga) na late ako sa flag ceremony! so second batch kami na magfflag ceremony.. 2 kami sa class na nalate, pumila ako sa likuran ng kaklase ko kasi mejo mainit dugo sakin ng principal namin (Sir Tolentino) kasi President ako ng Campus Ministry tapos madami akong pakulo kasi September, bday ni Mami MAry tapos panay imbita pa ako ki bp.sok na mag misa sa amin…… (backto my story) tinawag ba naman ako!!!!! sabi “Okay, DEFINITELY Miss Maria Eda Maningat will lead the National Anthem” what the heck! the i shouted “NO WAY SIR!” tapos sabay text.. so yun, nag play nalang sila ng recorded na Lupang Hinirang!

sorry, baka hindi ko mabigyan ng justice yung Lupang Hinirang kaya tinanggihan ko na lang. XD

10) Nasuspend ka na ba?
– hindi nila ako kayang isuspende! magsasara ang Jose Rizal Institute! hahahahahaha. magkakaroon ng either rally or boykot ng mga estudyante!
joooke

11) Bakit?
– Malay ko, baka trip lang nila? hahaha

naalala ko nung 1st year palangako, 1st time kong maoffice! si Mam Galicia pa ang principal..
napaiyak ko yung katabi ko (na sa 2nd year highschool ay nalipat ng lower section) kasi tinutukso ko siya sa teacher namin sa TLE..
tapos paguwi, kasi sinusundo siya ng tatay nya at 11-12 noon yung oras ng TLE namin, nakita ng tatay na umiiyak..so bumalik sila sa school at nagsumbong sa principal, so nang palabas ako ng school, bigla akong tinawag ni Chief Melo (security guard namin) sabi tawag daw ako sa office. kala ko ililibre ako ng lunch ni mAn Galicia,yung pala nagsusubong yung tatay ng napaiyak ko.. oh well, wala namang nangyari..kasi naman, duuhhh..kasamahan ko kaya sa simbahan tuwing week ends si mam Galicia kasi taga Hermosa din siya at siya pa ang Pres. ng CWL non… ahahahahaha.. asa ka naman!
sayang kasi nung 2nd year na kami nagretire na siya at napalitan na siya ni Sir ToLentino bilang principal na MEJO mortal kong kaaway. haha

12) Have u ever danced on stage?
– ooooOOOhh yes! hahaha.. mga memorable kong sinayaw: Bayani at Banal, Tara Tena, Celebrate Youth… XD ang kuleeeet kasi nila

13) Nanligaw ka ba noon? (for boys) May nanligaw ba sau nun (for girls)?
– wala masyado eh.. groupie ako nung highschool. 4th year na ako nagkaboyfriend —na legal. hahahahahaha .,.oh diba, ambait ko XD.
3rd year …ang illegal XD

secret na lang ang definition ko sa legal boyfriend! hahahaah

14) Nagka bf/gf ka ba nung highschool?
– Ya.

15) Sino all time crush mo nun?
– wula eh.. hehe.ay teka, si gelo? amp.. hahahaha. hindi ko naman nagiging crush yung campus crush eh. feeling ko kasi ang cheap.

16) Would you go back sa HS?
– Sure! basta ba same people, sama time, same age..sama lahat.parang time machine.

17) Ano lagi mong binibili sa canteen?
– Naku, seasonal kasi ang barkada favorite namin.. may chikito. Hi-Ho, yung nagyeyelong parang jelly ace na stick, demolino, tatoos, cloud9..at madami pang iba..karamihan sakanila tagpipiso lang. XD

18) Overpricing ba ang canteen nyo?
– hindi. subukan nila!

19) Nakakita ka n ba ng multo sa skul?
– nang picturan kami, sa likod (sa kabilang builing)..meron.
tapos may narinig na din ako sa CR ng girls.

20) Have you ever sang on stage pag may program?
– ay hindi. nahiya akong ishare ang aking boses.. haha. nang ginusto ko naman, hindi natuloy! amP!
duet dapat kami ni Jersey sa PANUNUMPA sa komunyon ng misa ni bp.sok eh :((

21) Fave subjects?
–Lahat! hahaha… honor student yata to!

22) Bumagsak ka n ba?
–never… ever.. sana ngayon gcollege wag din. (cross fingers).

23) Have you ever been sent out?
– Nope! yung teacher and na SENT OUT ng class namin! hahaha.
here’s the tally:
#of times MAPEH teacher cried (itago natin sa pangalang BB4641200RS): 4? 5?
hahahaha. nagcucut ng class yung almost half ng class namin sabay kaway pa silasa hagdan na kita sa bintana XD
#or teachers who cried because of us: 3? 4? tekaaaa.. basta nanjan sa dalawang numbers na yan. XD

24) Malayo b ang HS bldg sa canteen?
– hindi . isang volleyball court lang ang pagitan

25) Have you ever ran in the court?
– Uo naman. nagpapatintero pa nga kami doon eh XD napagalitan na kami ni Mam Hernandez once pero hindi yun sapat! hahaha. sa third time na pagalitan kami saka kami tumigil .XD una class lang namin, tapos gumaya yung ibang section tapos in the end, nakipag compete kami sakanila…at nanalo kami. hahah! XD hindi intrams nyan ah…a!and 4th year na kami nyan!

26) Varsity?
– YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Abot hanggang Regionals.. 9th place pa! Table Tennis, singles A.

27) Do you miss your school?
– VERY MUCH! hindi kami nakahanap ng panahon na dumalaw last summer vacation. huhuhu

28) Sino pinaka-dakila sa batch niyo?
– lahat kami dakila! hahaha.. 4-Diamond Batch 2007.
walang tatalo! walang papalit!

…naalala ko lang, yung napaiyak namin na MAPEH teacher namin, nang ayw na kaming pasukan, principal na lang yung nagturo, pero clueless naman siya kaya nagwalkout din yata sya nun after kmaing pagalitan.

29) Ano mga awards mo nun?
– mga honor student medal… athlete of the year.. tsaka mga competition na napapanalunan ko.. jounalism lang pala yung competition na yon. hahaha XD

30)Mga advisers mo?
–I-LOVE-Maam emerlinda guevarra (social studies 1 teacher namin)
II-ROSE-maam wilma manalac (biology teacher namin)
III-SAGITTARIUS-maam ruth sumandal (chemistry teacher nmin)
V-DIAMOND-maam elenita liwanag (economics teacher namin)

31) Naging officer ka ba?
– saaN? hahahahaha

32) May nakaaway ka ba nun?
–meron! pero 4thyear na ako nun. si maricris.. hehehe.nakalimutan ko na uyng pinagawayan namin.. di ko lang makalimutan na nag-away kami kasi sinigawan nya ako, muntik ko nang masabing “youre so cheap shouting in front of my face” hahahahah.

pero bati na kami ngayon! lab yu maricris!

33) Anong role mo pag foundation day?
– Liturgy.. taga gulo.. taga sigaw. haha.. saya nang 4th year, kasi kami na non ang top students ng school kasi kami ang 4th year, pinakamatanda tapos kami pa ang 1st section.. hahaha..
feeling namin mga boss kami. panay request ng kanya tsaka pa hello eh.

34) Pinaka close mo nun?
– JERSEY!..amiel!..michelle.. medeth..
hanggang n gayon naman sina Jersey at amiel pa din! minsan pati si mitch!
35) Pumasok ka ba sa CR ng opposite sex?
– oO naman! hahahaha. napasukan ko na lahat ng rooms sa school!

heto ang barkada ko mula highschool hanggang sa habang buhay!!!

“Time will heal your wounds.” but hey, Isn’t 62 days long enough?

2009-09-20T00:14:00.001+08:00

It has been 62 days since Angelo died, but nothing has changed. His memories are still fresh, lingering through me every minuet of my every day and my heart still shouts for his name, for his presence, for his tangible love.

I miss him.
I miss our sleepless nights.
I miss his comforting messages, his corny jokes, his sarcastic complements, his sometimes funny advices, our endless conversations; I miss every word he speaks.
Have you not missed him?
Have you not missed his “kakuriputan”, his pangdedeadma because he is reading his new book or seeing him all day long in front of the computer playing online games or him scribbling through his keyboard forming sentences for his blog or making new music videos for his silver screen page in multiply?
Have you not longed for his loud funny laughter or his katakawan every fiesta or his craziness over siomai or chicharon?

I do.
Do you?

I have learned more about him when he died, different things about him that came from different people who mingled with angelo when he was still, here on earth, nanggugulo sa buhay natin.. It’s like they are giving me every bit of my “dude” little by little.

A friend told me that when a person dies, one doesn’t go straight to heaven or hell; instead he goes to purgatory and stay there for a while to be purified from his sins.. I did not believe that friend, I believed in myself, that Angelo just passed by purgatory, for technicality sake or maybe he just said hello to a couple of his palls there, and then went to heaven at the same night he left us here on earth. My dude is a great person, yes he has sins, all of us does, but his was lighter than feather. (if you don’t believe me, just shut up! haha)

Angelo is just somewhere far having his extra long vacation and will come back soon – that is what I think of just to stop my tears from pouring over him again and again. Try it, sometimes its effective, and then I would still text his old cell phone number things I want to tell him and things I want him to know.

For the past two months, nights had gone by that I really wanted to talk to a person who will understand me and tell me something that would really ease me from the pain I’m enduring because of my long lasting and never ending f. problems. That person used to be Angelo and nobody else. He was my knight in shining armor that would fight with me through the battles I need a companion. I tried talking to someone, but she is either sleepy or busy about something, so there I was left alone. No Gelo, no anybody. This is one thing I’m so guilty about our relationship because I can’t return back the favor. He does not have problems like I do. In fact, he doesn’t really have problems except for his hungry stomach or his noisy neighbor who sells ice whom he is very furious about.

Some people tell me “Time will heal your wounds.” Isn’t two months long enough? Why do my wounds have not yet been healed by that “time”? Why does everything feels like the same day when Angelo died?

I hate myself and nagtatampo na din ako kay Gelo, kasi naman, why doesn’t he told me the thing that I wanted to hear from him four years ago. And that thing which I found out only a week after his death is something I do not actually sought to know now because I don’t want to feel what burdens me now the most: it pains me that “it” did not happen between us before. Now, it feels like waiting for a falling star on a sunny afternoon.

I felt I needed to write again because it is only in writing where I can tell what I really wanted to say.

Some people ask me “Why do you always go to Gelo’s resting place? Is he there?” I would answer them “No, Angelo is not there, he is in my heart. Nagpapahinga.” And then they would ask me the same question again..
Yes, I often go to Gelo’s place. That is my new tambayan in Bataan. You can find me there if you think that I’m missing. Why? Because I feel comfort, silence, love and most of all Angelo’s presence there. That is one of the two last places where I can touch Angelo by heart (the other is at his home in Kaparangan). May picture pa sya dun! Feeling ko talaga kaharap ko sya pag nagkukuento ako sakanya doon. :D Try nyo din doon! Relaxing.

When Gelo died, have you not realized that you found a whole new lot of friends? If you are his college friends, have you not met his 3KC Barkada? Or if you are his 3KC Barkada, have you not met his college friends and even Angelo’s family? Wonderful isn’t it. Gelo left but he gifted us with new found family and friends.
As for me, I met everybody; I met his college friends, his whole 3KC barkada, some of his online friends and most of all his family.

Since Gelo left me with nothing but a book entitled “Para Kay B” by Ricky Lee, I’ve been imagining and trying crazy things on how to get to him, on how to feel him in a way. One afternoon, while I was sitting and talking with him in his resting place, the wind blew so hard that it left me with a chill and I thought “Oooohhh. Gelo!.” And I said to myself: from now on, the wind will be like my Angelo’s hug. I’ve been trying that “thing” that I thought of a couple of times. I would tell Gelo “Pahug naman” and the wind would really blow so hard. I would always try that every time it’s scourging hot especially whenever I’m at his place.

Yes, just like what his father told us, “Only the physical Gelo will be gone but not the memories he left us with.” And that truth is the most burdensome isn’t it? His memories with us, the same memories that keep from me remembering a guy named Angelo Martin Espano, memories that keep my tears from falling and the memories that keep my heart from falling apart over and over again.

I know you feel the same way that I do, that’s why you are reading this until the end, don’t you?

Paalam ko kay Gelo

2009-09-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

Paalam ko kay Gelo. Hindi ito ang huli. Pero ito ang isa sa kanila.

May nagsabi sa akin na ang bawat kaibigan na ating nakikilala sa haba ng buhay na ipinagkakaloob sa atin ng Diyos ay kayaman na dapat pagyamanin at alagaan.

Marami na akong naging kaibigan sa paglalakbay ko sa buhay ko na ito. Labing walong taong gulang pa lamang ako pero mejo marami na din akong napagdaanan at sa iba’t ibang landas na iyon na aking tinahak sa paghahanap sa kaganapan ng aking buhay ay marami akong nakikilala, nakakasalamuha at ang ilan sa kanila ay nagiging kaibigan at mabibilang lang sa mga iyon ang tumatagal. Sa isa sa mga ruta na aking tinahak ay sinuerte ako dahil may nakilala akong isang tao na hindi ko namamalayan ay sumakop na pala sa malaking bahagi ng aking buhay, ng aking puso. Siya si Gelo. Sa kanya ako nagpapaalam ngayon.

Mag lilimang taon na tayong magkaibigan Gelo. Naaalala ko pa yung hapon na tinext mo ako kasi kinuha mo yung number ko sa friendster account ko kasi naamaze ka kasi babae ako na sacristan. Nagulat din ako sayo kasi nagulat ka na may babaeng sacristan. Sorry kasi pagkatapos ng ilang taon kong pagiging sacristan ay kailangan kong tumigil dahil na din sa obedience, naalala ko, nalungkot ka din noon ikinuento ko sayo ang galit at lungkot ko. Naalala ko sabi mo sakin non: Naku proud pa naman ako kasi may friend ako na babaeng sacristan!

Tagalog ako ngayon nagpapalam sayo friend kasi UNA: tagalong yung libro mo na nasaakin! At IKALAWA: tagalong din yung kunwaring librong ibinigay ko sayo. Nosebleed talaga yung librong yon kaht tagalong diba! Ang lalim eh.

Ang dami na din nating napagkwentuhan at manginlan ngilang pinagdaanan na magkasama. Naaalala mo ba, nilibre mo pa ako sa Greenwich pero teka, nilibre din yata kita sa Michelle’s! haha.

Malungkot ako Gelo kasi iniwan mo ako. Nangungulila ako sa mga salita mo na minsan nakakapagpasaya sa araw ko at minsan na nakakatulong sa paggawa ko ng desisyon. Susulatan na lang kita ngayon kasi hindi na kita maitext kasi wala nang magrereply sa akin.

Hindi ko sinasabi sa iyo pero kadalasan mas kilala mo pa ako at ang buhay ko kaysa sa bestfriend ko, kaysa sa magulang ko at siguro kaysa sa sarili ko.

Salamat sa mga payong pangkaibigan mo sa akin. Salamat naman din sa mga payo galing sa isang psychologist. At dahil sa mga payo na yon minsan tuloy naiisip ko na baliw na yata ako kasi heto ako tinatanong ng random question ng isang psychologist at sa sarili ko hindi ko matanggap ang mga sagot kaya sinasabi ko na lang sayo kaya pinagtatawanan mo ako kasi ang drama drama ko para sa wala. Sa haba ng sentence na yan, ikaw lang makakaintindi non kasi ikaw lang may alam.

Oo nga pala, alam mo bang ikaw ang may kasalanan kung bakit ako naadick dati sa O2 jam at dahil doon natuto na din akong mag audition. At may isa ka pang itinuro sa akin na site na parang guitar hero. Susubukan ko yung kapag nagawa na yung desktop ko sa maynila.

Kumusta pala yung mga email mo kay fr.Jun? Natuloy ba yon? Sabi mo sa akin na gagawa ka na din ng podcast para sa site ng diocese. Napanood ko na yung ilan doN! J Mayroon silang ipinapanood noong unang punta ko sa bahay nyo. Sorry kasi hindi ko na napanood kasi hindi ko kaya kasi papaiyakin mo lang ako lalo! Grabe ka talaga, ang dami kong luha na naubos para sayo. Sorry kasi ikaw yan Gelo na umalis.

Oo nga pala, may ibinulong sa akin yung daddy mo. Gelo, gusto mo ba yon na mangyario dati? Di mo kasi sinabi sa akin eh. Teka, pero di ko expected na sasabihin yon ng daddy mo sa akin sa panahon pa na iyon. Salamat kasi ganoon pala ako kaimportante sa iyo kaibigan! J

Kung siguro isusulat ko lahat ng mga alaalang mayroon tayong dalawa, aabutin ako ng taon kagaya ng sa hinaba-haba ng taon nating magkaibigan. Hanggang jan na lang muna ang ikukwento ko sayo na mababasa ng ibang tao tapos yung ibang kwento, pagkukwentuhan na lang natin pag dalaw ko sayo. Mag bibirthday ka na! pakain ka !

Sa text nagsimula ang ating pagkakaibigan at sa text di ko inaasahan matatapos ang lahat. Salamat kasi sa akin ka nagtiwalang sabihin ang mga bagay na iyon. Salamat kasi ako ang pinili mo na kausapin sa panahon na hirap ka na. Bakit hindi mo sa akin ipinaramdam noong panahong iyon na nasasaktan ka na pala. Lagi naman kitang tinatanong pero kagi ka ring nagdedeny na nasasaktan ka na pala.

Gelo, salamat sa lahat ng taon na na pagbabahagi mo sa akin ng iyong buhay. Salamat sa limang taong pakikihati sa buhay ko at sa buhay mo. Hindi kita boyfriend diba? Hindi mo rin ako girlfriend dahil alam ko higit pa tayo doon. Ang kung ano mang mayroon tayo ay mananatili at matibay na tatagal habang buhay o habang may isip at puso pa ako na ikaw ang alaalang laman. Minahal kita Gelo at hanggang ngayon mahal na mahal pa rin kita. Ako rin hindi ko rin maintindihan si God kung bakit ikaw pa. Kung bakit kung sino pa ang kagaya mo ang kinukuha nya. Siguro naisip ni God na ayaw ka na nyang masaktan pa. Sabi ko naman sayo na kakayanin mo ang lahat kasi alam ni God kung ano ang limitasyon mo. Sa panahong sobrang nahirapan ka na, oh di ba, kagaya ng sa footprints in the sand ay binuhat ka nya at dahil ayaw na Nyang masaktan ka pa ay isinama ka na nya sa kanyang paraiso. Ikaw lang ang laman ng dasal ko kasi ikaw lang din naman ang laman ng isip at puso ko sa ngayon. Aaminin ko na siguro sa pagtagal ay mapapagod din ako sa pagdarasal ko na ikaw lang pero pangako, Gelo na hindi ka mawawala sa bawat usapang magkakaroon kami ni God. Alam ko kasama mo na si God ngayon, ano itsura? Guapo ba? Hehe.

Miss na kita agad. Sa gabi ikaw na lang ang laman ng isip ko. Tulungan mo akong matutunang huwag ka nang mamiss kagaya ng sa ngayon. Mahirap. Nang mag sink in na sa akin na wala ka na nga, doon halos hindi ko nakayanin pero naisip ko na masaya ka at naisip ko na dapat maging Masaya na din ako para sa iyo.

Isa ka sa pinakaimportanteng tao sa buhay ko. Ngayong wala ka na, sino na ang kausap ko sa tuwing malungkot ako? Sino na ang kasama kong magsasabing “Si Bamboo pala ang magmimisa!” Sino na ang makikipagkita sa akin sa tuktok ng bundok Samat? Wala na akong kaparehas na telepono, sino at ano pa ang dahilan kung bakit ito ang maging cell phone ko? Sino na ang magcocomfortsa akin sa mga gabing nalulungkot ako dahil sa mga porblemang ikaw lang din ang nakakalam?

Tama nga ang sinabi nila. Hindi lang kami nawalan ng isang Gelo kundi nawalan kami ng Angelo na may maraming malaking puso para sa lahat ng tao. Tama rin ang sinabi ng daddy mo na tanging ang pisikal na katawan mo lang ang nawala, hindi ang mga alaala na iniwan mo sa bawat isa sa amin. At dahil doon, forever (hindi ko alam kung ano tagalong nyan) kang kasali sa araw-araw na paglalakbay namin.

Babasahin ko itong libro mo ng paunti unti ha. Gusto ko kasing tumagal, pakiramdam ko kasi ay kinukwentuhan mo ako ulit kapag binabasa ko ang libro mo.

Mahal kita Gelo. Magkita na lang tayo ulit sa kung saan mang lugar gustuhin ni God. Ipagdasal mo ako. Malakas ka kay God eh lalo pa ngayon kapiling ka na nya